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uh oh its happened again..............
ive spent today pretty much alone worked alot from 4am to 4pm then gym which was good. now i feel low again theres no reason for it nothing has happened!
whats going on i think im going mad!
these horrible thoughts haunt me whatever i do...
ive done so many things everyone said werent possible, just to rid myself of this feeling but it just wont shift.
years have gone bye now, YEARS, like 11 years since i remember this feeling beggining.
maybe there is no way out, maybe i was born to be punished by myself and my own disfunctional mind...
oh got offered a job today at the gym ha, wish i could take it.
aah well dont worry evem i am finding this boring ive got all night now on my own dont think tonight will be very fun!
up down up down up down !!!!!
im soooooooo sick of it theres only one solution and the more i avoid it the more it makes sense !!!:crying:
ive spent today pretty much alone worked alot from 4am to 4pm then gym which was good. now i feel low again theres no reason for it nothing has happened!
whats going on i think im going mad!
these horrible thoughts haunt me whatever i do...
ive done so many things everyone said werent possible, just to rid myself of this feeling but it just wont shift.
years have gone bye now, YEARS, like 11 years since i remember this feeling beggining.
maybe there is no way out, maybe i was born to be punished by myself and my own disfunctional mind...
oh got offered a job today at the gym ha, wish i could take it.
aah well dont worry evem i am finding this boring ive got all night now on my own dont think tonight will be very fun!
up down up down up down !!!!!
im soooooooo sick of it theres only one solution and the more i avoid it the more it makes sense !!!:crying:
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Sorry to hear that your feeling really down right now - it must be really difficult to suddenly feel down after a positive day. Just try to remember that this isn't a punishment, it's an illness.
As overthehill mentions there are ways to help deal with depression and feeling that you can't control the way you feel. It's important to remember that if one particular way to deal with depression or if a particular medication hasn't helped then there will be alternatives.
If you'd like to just chat to someone live then there's always the Samaritans on 08457 90 90 90. As other users have found, they aren't just there to deal with feeling suicidal but to be a friendly voice to talk to when things are rough.
It may also be worth speaking to your doctor again about alternative medication or treatments and to help you find the best way to deal with and improve what you're experiencing.
Hope you feel happier soon