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Lost the will
Indrid Cold
Posts: 16,688 Skive's The Limit
In the last year or so (or maybe half year) I seem to have lost the will to do work for uni. When I started back in 2004 I was excited about it, even after I'd been there for years and knew what it really was like. It's on a subject I really like so I also had the incentive to keep on learning, and not just the pressure of passing classes.
I don't really know what has changed in the past year. Maybe it's my doubts on whether programming is something I'm really interested in (as I used to think) or just something that I want to do as a hobby. Or maybe it's because of the lots of time we've been missing (long story why, but for a couple of months now uni wasn't working). Or maybe it's something else.
The point is, I've lost the will to do anything about it. I'm tired of the deadlines and the labs and the journey to uni and back, etc. I still like programming, it's just the uni mentality I'm tired of.
Because of the educational system here I'm not really missing anything by this, it's not like I'm in danger of not finishing or anything; it might just simply take longer. But I'm worried that I'm never going to get that will back.
I guess this was more of a rant than anything else...
I don't really know what has changed in the past year. Maybe it's my doubts on whether programming is something I'm really interested in (as I used to think) or just something that I want to do as a hobby. Or maybe it's because of the lots of time we've been missing (long story why, but for a couple of months now uni wasn't working). Or maybe it's something else.
The point is, I've lost the will to do anything about it. I'm tired of the deadlines and the labs and the journey to uni and back, etc. I still like programming, it's just the uni mentality I'm tired of.
Because of the educational system here I'm not really missing anything by this, it's not like I'm in danger of not finishing or anything; it might just simply take longer. But I'm worried that I'm never going to get that will back.
I guess this was more of a rant than anything else...
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you need to try and just get it out of the way, how much longer have you got left if you dont miss any more deadlines?
Right now I have 5-6 I've taken and not passed yet, some I have and some I've not taken yet (I don't know numbers). I suppose I'm closer to the end than I am to the beginning.
I don't know, maybe I'm just spoiled.
That's completely understandable - life tends to change a lot post uni and I guess most people don't want it to end - well except for maybe the exams and essays
Have you started to plan what you're going to do next? You mention you're not sure whether you'd like to do programming as more than a hobby... it might help to go and see a careers advisor about what other options you could consider. This article on study motivation might also help.
Helen, I've not planned what I'm going to do afterwards... Not at all really, because I'm afraid of it all. I'll think about career advisors, but I think I nailed the issue, fear of what comes next.
That page had some things I'll try to do, but the truth is I'm just not ready to get done. If I push myself to do it ASAP anyway, I'm afraid I'll regret it.
I know you don't feel ready to leave, but unfortunately you have to leave whether your ready or not. Life is like that, just when you get comfortable and settled things change. Tis the way things are can't argue with it just embrace it.
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