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Hiya, newbie here...new to the site but not to depression, SH, posting...
I hope I'm not upsetting the status quo here, just wanted to comment, specifically to hyper person, and maybe just have a general 'shooting of the breeze' with regards to my experience of these things
HP - you're not an idiot, or a loser. You're doing the best you can. I carved myself up like a Xmas turkey, and all I can think about is doing it again...hence sitting with laptop trying to distract myself
Every time I do it, I hope it will be the last time. I find it helps, and coping's coping right....but OH hates it, and it makes him so upset. At the arse end of a mental breakdown ATM, so employing some fairly unhealthy techniques for getting through the day...inc. hitting the booze. I know I know, anyone who's reading this and takes/knows about AD's will tell me that it's not a good thing...but it helps.
The thing with yesterday, I think something was definatly brewing, as I spent the day cutting, and crying, and cutting, and drinking...sounds like the lyrics of a bad country and western song. Anyway, the day culminated in me telling my OH (of 8 years) about the rape and sexual abuse in my past, which was something I always thought I would NEVER tell. He knows I've had a fucked up life, which goes part was to explaining my fucked up head (BPD):grump:
Sorry, back to the self harm - I've been reading ALOT recently about mental illness and the like, and it turns out I've been doing it for years, but never realised it had a name. I've only turned to blades fairly recently, but looking back I've done the lot...the skin picking, scratching till i bleed, banging my head against the wall (probably why my memory is shot to pieces these days:banghead: )....I could go on. Point is, I know my disease, or whatever you want to call it - like so many of us do, but can't do much about it at this point, cept ride this particular wave till I'm back on dry land again.
Sorry for the epic post guys....promise to be a little less wordy next time
Vicky XXX
I have suffered from depression and self-harming for three years now. I am on medication for both, but lately I seem to feel it’s not working. As well as having suicidal thoughts and cutting myself a lot more, I also have to deal with being obsessed with men in shows. I know it sounds weird, but it’s making me very upset and I wish I could stop, but I can’t. I see a psychiatrist once every two months, but she doesn’t seem to be helping much. Will any one tell me what shall I do?
SH isn't a weakness, it's a coping mechanism...which shows you are coping, and you can fight this
Take care
Vicky XXX
You need some help hon, you can't battle this on your own
Then again some people use abbreviation BPD to be bi-polar, and if u did then im waffling shite for no reason!
You have not let them done, especially if they know what it is your going through, they will understand.
Whats up Sofie?
Anything you wanna get off your chest?
whats up?
im sorry everyone-i no what people look like when you've tried-but i dont plan onseeing there faces after
Thats really hard..
You can end up buggering yourself up, and hurting people who love you
Found that one out the hard way
Vicky XXX
xsazx what is the problem? is it school? I had a really bad time at school, that is what caused me most of my problems, at the time, you think you'l never get out, but just stick it out and you will get through it..Get the grades you derserve and make something of your self..
hyper person you are not stupid and usless, you know that!
I know its not much but if anyone wants to talk about anything to someone that they dont know and will never see, feel free to PM me.
Sorry I just want to help in any way I can and thats all I can really do.
Didn't mean to come across as condecending, so sorry if that was how it was recieved....just saying I've been there, and if anyone wants to chat openly and honestly with me about it...feel free to PM me
I think that you really are doing bestg and proving the bullies wrong but getting the best you can and getting out of there.
Im sure that your new school will be better? do you know anyone tht goes there currently..have you thought about going to college..
I was bullied even to an extent at college, and again last year wheni went back, but I am now stronger and it was only 1 day a week.
I know it must be tough, but don't let them win..things will get better.
x
Remember, the people who are bullying you ATM will be working in the supermarket/McDonalds etc... In a few years time, and you'll make a life for yourself, coz you're a survivor, not a bully