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BillieTheBot
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and so far hardly any withdrawals, only a fucking desire. I feel ok, my eyes r a little blurred but better than earlier in the week. I wont sleep tonight but i wont stay up on the computer all the time.
beginning to feel scared now as im the only one online on yahoo, all alon but ive got my pillow so goodnight all.
beginning to feel scared now as im the only one online on yahoo, all alon but ive got my pillow so goodnight all.
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Im now quite worried and thats all i can say. <IMG alt="image" alt="image" SRC="http://www.thesite.org/ubb/frown.gif">
I keep looking behind to see if anyones come in and its getting scary.
ill keep a diary of the next few days too.
we're all here if you want to post and get something off your chest or if you need to talk.
If you don't know where you're going, you'll probably end up somewhere else.
didn't sleep last night, went totally crazy and just had to have a bit, made some shitty excuse about next weekend, and i now realise that this week seemed like a year, that gives me another year to go.
Awwww Harry baby (((((((0)))))))))
thanx grizzly, needed that.
im feeling good this morning (guess why) and im in a good mood.
think i might go and give advice on all the topics.
hope it works out 4u <IMG alt="image" alt="image" SRC="http://www.thesite.org/ubb/smile.gif">
The more sand that escapes through the hourglass of time, the clearer we should be able to see through it.
been on it constantly today, almost a gram, eyes gone bad again, and im not making any plans to stop anytime soon as its too much hassle.
might cut down tho.
Hey harry, Im sorry to hear u r feelin so crap but I just gotta say that theres no way u r gonna handle just cutting down on crack. If u r as bad as u r saying then its gotta be all or nothing. U dont hit me as the sort to b able to do a bit here and there. If u wanna get off it, and I think that u should, u r gonna have to get off it alltogether coz cutting down is too hard to do. I wouldnt be able to do a bit here and there, If I had one seesion Id be at it till I had not a penny to my name. Im not patronising u, I just think u should really consider knocking it on the head completly, not just cutting down.
Hope things get a bit better for ya.
Thats wen u go bak 2 step 1 again.
The more sand that escapes through the hourglass of time, the clearer we should be able to see through it.
I tried setting an hourly smoke, had my hourly smoke but its so good u end up doing it till u run out.
U've got to stop instantly and as of now im going to try.
45 mins, feeling low, slow and weak, gagging for one, and its going to get worse. i'll report back soon
as for my current state, ive really been dying for a rush (something which crack doesn't seem to offer to me anymore) and ive been thinking of injecting coke for one big rush before i stop, just to find out what its like.
The more sand that escapes through the hourglass of time, the clearer we should be able to see through it.
Got As business and accounting, finish at 1:25 (not as bad as mondays....8:40-10:55 then im home), get home at 2, i hate it when i get home early cos i get so bored and guess what i do when im bored....
i might hang in the smoking shelter for the rest of the day with some mates (Im getting 1/8 skunk and 1/8 pollen resin.)
fuck the pills, they may help me down or i might end up fucked out, Im just going to have to suffer.
If i delay till 3 when i get home some of my other friends will be back from their college, go out somewhere, hes got his motorbike fixed except thge alternator (battery drains in seconds so u gotta start it and not turn it off till ur done, right fuckin drag <IMG alt="image" alt="image" SRC="http://www.thesite.org/ubb/smile.gif">.
once my mom and dad r home ill try and spend time with them downstairs and keep myself as socially occupied as possible, my dads a dick but moms ok.
then bedtime (uh oh), guess ill put the radio on and try some sleep, no college thursday, thats bad, home alone all day, no mates.
or i could to what one of my mates did, take a 25 mile walk along the downs.....fuck no, twisted my knee joint.
just had my last one about 30 mins ago and my attitude is changing already, less enthusiastic bout quitting, more enthusiastic bout stayin on till the weekend, indesisive.
fuck it, ill print out a proper plan and stick to it.
l8r....
can i???????
c what happens.....