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My Head
BillieTheBot
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I think theres something wrong with my head.
Ever since the whole thing happened with my dad, I've been well confused, not knowing what to do, so what I've been doing is just keeping quiet. Staying in my bedroom. Not objecting to anything my parents say. Trying to forget about the whole thing.
But its in my head. Its in my brain, its still there. I've been out with my friends to their houses, and to the cinema and everything. I can't be my normal self. I'm trying to be happy and normal about stuff but its like theres a black cloud in my mind fogging it up with all what happened and I'm trying to make the cloud go away but its not doing its just there making me remember what he did, the arguments that we've had, and I'm trying to be happy but its not working.
My friends keep asking me whats wrong and I say I'm fine, because I sort of am if the cloud would go away and I can be myself again. I thought coming back to thesite would make me normal again but the post is there reminding me vivdly what he did.
I know I'm making too much of a deal of what he did to me because it was just one beating but I can't forget it. I CANT. And its fogging my mind. I just want to be happy again and normal. Theres something wrong with my head.
Avada Kedavra.
[This message has been edited by ElisaKate (edited 07-01-2001).]
Ever since the whole thing happened with my dad, I've been well confused, not knowing what to do, so what I've been doing is just keeping quiet. Staying in my bedroom. Not objecting to anything my parents say. Trying to forget about the whole thing.
But its in my head. Its in my brain, its still there. I've been out with my friends to their houses, and to the cinema and everything. I can't be my normal self. I'm trying to be happy and normal about stuff but its like theres a black cloud in my mind fogging it up with all what happened and I'm trying to make the cloud go away but its not doing its just there making me remember what he did, the arguments that we've had, and I'm trying to be happy but its not working.
My friends keep asking me whats wrong and I say I'm fine, because I sort of am if the cloud would go away and I can be myself again. I thought coming back to thesite would make me normal again but the post is there reminding me vivdly what he did.
I know I'm making too much of a deal of what he did to me because it was just one beating but I can't forget it. I CANT. And its fogging my mind. I just want to be happy again and normal. Theres something wrong with my head.
Avada Kedavra.
[This message has been edited by ElisaKate (edited 07-01-2001).]
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{{{{{{ElisaKate}}}}}}
i dont know what to say. because although my situation isnt the same, i feel the exact way you do on the cloud thing. nothing is going away, and i dont know how to set everything free.
everyone is here if you need to talk as youve seen. and even though ive not been here too long, u can always talk to me ok?
i may be soft in your palm, but i'll soon grow hungry for a fight-and i will not let you win.
[This message has been edited by IcKleMoNSteR (edited 14-05-2001).]
Have you had a look at the link that Luk posted a little while ago? http://community.netdoktor.com/ccs/uk/depression/facts/testyourself/index.jsp
Its a kind of depression self test, but it is only a guide.
j9
MTS ^5
Avada Kedavra.
answered truthfully.
I got either 34 or 36, but I was pleased b'cos I would have got about 56 last year, so I'm on the mend.
Keep an eye on how you feel & if it starts getting worse, do the test again, print it out & go & see your GP.
Please take care Elisa
j9
MTS ^5
It's better to regret things you've done than things you haven't.
You are having suicidal thoughts. This is a serious warning sign, and you must seek help quickly.
rofl.... just cos I've always wanted to commit suicide off a buildiong to get the adrenaline rush I get told I got suicidal thoughts... geez
try bungie jumping Daze <IMG alt="image" alt="image" SRC="http://www.thesite.org/ubb/smile.gif">
j9
But nuff bout it.. too tempting to do it.
I got that message too.
Avada Kedavra.
grr.. ur not menna b getting that message tho... ur relatively sane compared to me