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Lost and never to be found
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Tonight I lost something that I had no idea existed in my life. A friend tonight showed me a letter from my ex-girlfriend claiming to have had terminated our child, a child I never even knew may have existed.
I am kind of relieved to have finally had realised my instincts have been proved right. whilst we were going out I had suspected and asked her if she may be pregnant, and she just laughed off my suggestions as ludricous.
I feel really hurt that I was obviously worthless to be told even yes I might be.
sorry if I'm incoherrant but v.upset about what once was and what might just might have been. I hope I'm not sounding anti-abortionist, cos I'm not. just irrational right now.
Luk
The river is wide and oh so deep. I've been walking around in tears, No answers arethere to get. Cause between this world and eternity there is a face I hope to see
I am kind of relieved to have finally had realised my instincts have been proved right. whilst we were going out I had suspected and asked her if she may be pregnant, and she just laughed off my suggestions as ludricous.
I feel really hurt that I was obviously worthless to be told even yes I might be.
sorry if I'm incoherrant but v.upset about what once was and what might just might have been. I hope I'm not sounding anti-abortionist, cos I'm not. just irrational right now.
Luk
The river is wide and oh so deep. I've been walking around in tears, No answers arethere to get. Cause between this world and eternity there is a face I hope to see
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What can I say Luka. That's... I don't know how to respond. I guess it's pretty bad for you to find out at this point in time and in your current state. I wish I could say more, but I can't think what can be said - what needs to be said.
Sorry to hear the news, and we're here for you if you want,
DM
I didn't lose my mind, it was mine to give away.
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[This message has been edited by j9j9 (edited 28-12-2000).]
Thanks J9, have just woken and am now starting the sobering up process. I haven't stopped crying during my waking hours.
I know it would have been the wrong time to have kids. And that one day i'll understand what happened. I'm just feeling so lost, so empty and am struggling to accept everything in life that's been dished out. I really fear things are spirralling out of control again. I'm not looking for answer cuz i know there aren't any to get, I've asked all the questions so many times for so many years. I guess once again I'm just looking for somewhere to sound off.. sorry
Luk
The river is wide and oh so deep. I've been walking around in tears, No answers arethere to get. Cause between this world and eternity there is a face I hope to see
[This message has been edited by LUKA (edited 28-12-2000).]
Im sure u understand that this girl did what she did for her own reasons and Im sure wether u had known or not she would have reached the same decision, coz that is what she wanted to do and she had to decide for herself. Never the less, it must be shitty for u and Im sorry to hear it.
Just to try and make u feel a bit better, remeber that just coz things feel bad at the moment they wont forever and things can only get better (as the song says). I know it dont always feel like that, but its true, and for every shitty time there is a good time that will make up for it at some point in life <IMG alt="image" alt="image" SRC="http://www.thesite.org/ubb/smile.gif">