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Sofie - is there any work you can do? Something that requires your full attention?
Hmm...
You could do my work .
Kidding.
Hmmmmmm....
I don't know . I'm not good at distracting myself >.<.
Slightly disturbed question but do you actually take layers of your skin off? I just kind of slice downwards. Couldn't imagine doing it any other way.
As for taking your mind off it, stay on here and reply to every single new post. Your post count will go up and you'll be cut-less. I know the feeling though. I'm having a shit time at the moment and the only thing stopping me cutting is knowing how disappointed my boyfriend would be. He loves me and accepts it but I don't think he could cope with the mental strain and would probably leave me.
Every night.
For the last week...except Saturday night because Rich was here.
I hate living here. I hate it.
Take me away from here .
Franki- That's fine
Marie- Thankyou- I don't know why I can't handle them, but it just triggers me.
Someone mentioned telling parents, sadly mine saw and found out that way, my Mum still blames herself for it.
Hugs
I've started to feel rather bad recently too, mine is due to stress though
Done this. Always do this after cutting myself. (whether it was an accident or not)
Never managed to do that.
I'm really worried now though - a friend of mine might find out about this (he knows that I SH) and will just have a go at me again.:( Although, he has confused me now - a few weesk ago, he basically told me that he couldn't stay away from me because I might slash my wrists and blame him for it (why he thinks I'm that stupid, I don't know) and on Wednesday night, he didn't seem bothered about this at all. He just blocked me and that was it.
As for telling parents, I've been doing it on and off for six years, sometimes quite badly, and they still have NO idea I do it. Well they might have guessed by now, but they havent mentioned it to me.
It took me seven years to tell mine (and only then it was because I was going to be starting at a "day hospital" which would have been almost impossible to hide). It's a very hard thing to do.
Meh.
I feel a little bit better today. History marks made me feel supershit for a while, but then I got top marks in Maths and that made me utterly happy . Kinda down atm, but that's because I'm tired and I know I have a mountain of work to face this weekend . Fucking IB.
It never gets easier. I didnt harm for about 2 years, then I did it last november, then haven't done it since, but want to again now. For no reasons as such, but reasons to me that just seem to make me sad. I hope that everyone works things out. Talk to people that you feel will understand and that wont judge you, ones that with time will understand that you need more support than another person maybe..
I'm not sure i'm making sense to you all, but i'm trying.
A really good distraction I found was crying and writing things down, as it tired me out so much I didnt have energy to do anything, but somedays it doesn't work,somedays nothing does, all you can do is try you best and if that isn't good enough, then you have to pick yourself up and try again.
Good luck! x
You dont have to tell them or let them find out. I've managed quite well to keep it from them. Some friends dont understand either, they think that because you self harm your going to do something stupid. You have to try to explain to them about self harming but I know from experience they dont always listen.
I had to explain to him twice and talk to a friend of mine before he actually believed that I wasn't going to do anything stupid if he stayed away from me. (I asked my friend how would I convince him that I wouldn't do anything)
The annoying thing is the next day, he was basically like 'do whatever you like' .(as in, take a break from him or continue talking to him)
He has now gone and decided that because I was pestering him on Wedneday (I was only trying to get some stuff off him) that he isn't going to talk to me. I have a feeling this is exactly why I ended up cutting myself on Thursday.:(
Anyway, I got advised to clean the wound several times then just cover it. I did this (by using cool boiled water as I didn't any antiseptic was or anything like that) and put some medical tape on before going to bed last night. Woke up this morning and one of the cuts had gone all gungy and wouldn't scab over. So, anyway I had to go and get some savlon wash stuff which seems to have done the trick now. I think I need to cover it else it rubs against everything (or just wear t-shirts and everyone will see all the marks down my arm) so what is the best thing to cover it with?
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Which what I've been using but it goes all gungy.
If they start doing it regularly like they used to I won't be able to handle it.
Just that one 5 minute argument almost made me cry.
Too. Much. Shit.
Mehhhhhhhhhhhhh.
Good luck in counselling, honey .
Good luck.
I'm still feeling like shit - been like this for nearly a week now.:(
Sorry to hear things aren't good with you guys either
Good luck with the counselling Kirsty.
to you Franki. I know how much having you parents at each other throats hurts.
Meh.
I'm also in a relationship which sometimes is awesome and perfect, and then my bf just changes his tune and I feel pushed away. I've been crying for the past couple days and I don't know why. I feel so low in myself. I mean, I know I've not gone out anywhere on my days off merely (yes I get myself that down about it) cause I've had two really obvious spots on my cheek. So I feel unattractive. Then my boyfriends insensitive. Then I look at June and thinks it's gonna be a whole bundle of mixed feelings. I'm going to America for a camp thing, my boyfriends finishing uni whereas I have another year, and so me and him are probably gonna end. I'm not really gonna see my family a lot before I go to America. One of my housemates who has grown to be one of my bestest mates will begin her gap yr in year 3 and I won't see her before she goes.
I have work in an hour. I feel helpless and pathetic. I just wanna go home. I have thought of SH but it's a path I've resisted and I don't anyone to be aware of it so I have to resist seeing as my bf would see my whole body. I feel a mess. I wanna communicate with him but he's hard to pin down and spend time with.
Grrr. :crying: