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Postcard From the Edge
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No, this post has nothing to do with a film starrring Mel Gibson & Goldie Hawn.
As some of you know I'm due in hospital later and just wanted to write some feelings I have as I can't sleep due a nasty case of anxiety.
I am relieved for this stint inside as I will hopefully finally be able to this screwed up head of mine. Depression is the worst thing I have experienced in my entire life.
I have been a diagnosed with this illness for some 5 years now, and have refused help before. I have hit the point where I can not physically let alone mentally cope with the depths that lurk in my mind.
Asking for help with this illness is the heardest thing one can do, making the first step certainly was hard on me, and the things I said, did during physchiatric sessions left me resenting my life more. Now I am ready to put myself on the path to recovery and resume normal life again. It'll be nice to look in the mirror as opposed to just seeing a reflection.
I'm sorry for rambling on but I had to release some of this anxiety. thanks for listening. If anyone feels despair never be afraid to ask for help.
Take care
Luka
As some of you know I'm due in hospital later and just wanted to write some feelings I have as I can't sleep due a nasty case of anxiety.
I am relieved for this stint inside as I will hopefully finally be able to this screwed up head of mine. Depression is the worst thing I have experienced in my entire life.
I have been a diagnosed with this illness for some 5 years now, and have refused help before. I have hit the point where I can not physically let alone mentally cope with the depths that lurk in my mind.
Asking for help with this illness is the heardest thing one can do, making the first step certainly was hard on me, and the things I said, did during physchiatric sessions left me resenting my life more. Now I am ready to put myself on the path to recovery and resume normal life again. It'll be nice to look in the mirror as opposed to just seeing a reflection.
I'm sorry for rambling on but I had to release some of this anxiety. thanks for listening. If anyone feels despair never be afraid to ask for help.
Take care
Luka
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Good luck, I'm sure the road will be a tough one, but won't it be wonderful to be on top of the hill looking down on the trees instead of trying to look through them.
You have friends rooting for you, take care & get well.
J9
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kind regards
derby
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c ya
love helly
Friends,
I would like to firstly thank you all for your kind words of support, it means alot to have the feeling of a base of friends to return to.
I thought you might like to know I had my assesment session today and came to the decision with the psychiatrist ( who unusually is not a pretenious asshole) that I will be admitted to their ward on Monday for a starting period of 2 weeks to be reviewed as progress (and funds) dictate.
It feels a relief, to feel that I'm on the road to recovery, ok it's a slow road, but I've taken my first proper step. I am truly greatful for the health insurance supplied by my company as the hospital is a nice friendly place.
The one problem though is amongst my many problems, he wants to treat me for internet addiction, he thinks that a 7 hour stint online most days is exessive <IMG alt="image" alt="image" SRC="http://www.thesite.org/ubb/biggrin.gif"> can't see it myself !! lol. I will be allowed to take my laptop with me but not a modem cable, so contact will be difficult. Any ideas ?.
I'll speak to you soon, take care. And remember the first step to recovery isn't an easy one but is well worth it. don't ever feel alone. If you want any advice about depression I have discovered a wondeful site by a uk charity called the depression Alliance: http://www.depressionalliance.org
Take care to my friends I know, and those i've yet to meet.
Luka
the river is wide and oh so deep
I really hope it works out for u, stick with it and dont give up!
Lots of love lolly xxxx
Hope things are going well in Hospital. Keep us all posted on your progress.
I really hope things aren't as scary as you thought they'd be.
Thinking of you,
Rob.
I think that I must spend 7 hrs a day on the net, but I don't see it as a problem. It's usually split down into several chunks though.
Try directing him to this site so he can see the support we give each other.
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J9