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whats the matter with me?
BillieTheBot
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hey again people
I dunno whats the matter with me. I've just been ignoring it but now its really bothering me.
Things went bad with me and a squeeze, I finally accepted that I didn't do anything wrong accept go about telling her the wrong way.
She reacted in a really bitchy way which led to making me miserable (however, I think her mates got involved) so I just 'disappeared' and left her alone. (Hell, I felt so guilty I apologised to her!).
Despite all this, I still care a little about her and still think about her a fair bit and strangely enough, I have dreams about the things that happened and recently had one about her snogging a girl.
I wanna know what it means, why am I still thinking about her? Why can't I feel the same about other girls and why do I still care for her? I just want to be really happy again before all this happened.
I dunno whats the matter with me. I've just been ignoring it but now its really bothering me.
Things went bad with me and a squeeze, I finally accepted that I didn't do anything wrong accept go about telling her the wrong way.
She reacted in a really bitchy way which led to making me miserable (however, I think her mates got involved) so I just 'disappeared' and left her alone. (Hell, I felt so guilty I apologised to her!).
Despite all this, I still care a little about her and still think about her a fair bit and strangely enough, I have dreams about the things that happened and recently had one about her snogging a girl.
I wanna know what it means, why am I still thinking about her? Why can't I feel the same about other girls and why do I still care for her? I just want to be really happy again before all this happened.
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still doesn't give her the right to be a bitch.
I thought she was interested but she was just giving fake signals to boost her ego.
As for liking other girls, truth be told I haven't met or seen any that interest me and if I do find one their taken. anyway after this happened I try not to try it on with girls anymore to prevent anymore slip ups.
anyway, its not that I don't like her, I still carry a torch (well its more of a match stick) for her. Its just I don't want her to hate me for telling her I liked her. I did apologise to her and kept her away from her. The question is why do I still care for her, do I need closure because for one thing if she doesn't want to hear from me and I keep bugging her I could get in real trouble.
In the end I realised I had actually grown afraid of her, so I just did my best to try and explain the whole story to her. She didn't want to listen, but just the attempt might have helped me.
At about the same time though, I got to know someone else that I liked much more. So I don't know which it was that helped, but something did.
Sorry if there's nothing helpful to you in the ramble above.
When you tried to explain the story but you owed no explanation, thats the story with the apology, I did that on my own because she made me guilty for liking her and just made me numb.
NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO.
I did that in highschool a number of times. IT DOES NEVER WORK.
I know it's the easy way,... the easiest way TO FAIL!
Make the effort... hop over your shadow. Nobody wants someone who is too chicken to say it in person or AT LEAST on the phone, except she had the hots for you for ages....
omg, jooohhnnnnnn!!
do I regret it: Hell yes
Not just because she said no but just for the fact that she's got a piece of evidence that says "this bloke is a dickhead" which she will always remember me as, thats what I hate. I expected her to keep quiet but being a scenester she "needs attention" and this was just what she needed. anyway fuck that, I did it, its done, its over, the ONLY comfort I get from this is that I had the guts to tell her how I felt. I have to file this under "well it seemed like a good idea at the time". Trouble is it doesn't make me feel any better, even after I apologised, I wanted to wash out my mouth. Its not the event itself that bothers me, its the reminders/memories I get from it that haunt me.
No need to reply, just saying whats on my mind.
if anyone's gonna slate me then don't bother I've heard it all already.
Thats better...
Do you think she's sat at home distraught that she's upset you?
No.
End of the day, it's one girl who's obviously not returned your feelings, and she's rubbed your nose in it a bit. It's not nice, but you'll have a lot more ups and downs to come in the relationships that'll you'll have, so the bottom line is not to let it become more than it actually is.
You can either torture yourself about it (because that is what you're doing), or you can put it down to experience and try and move on.
im tired and going to bed
Thanks for the replies and not slating me, I appreciate it.