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THE WORST DAY OF MY LIFE

Former MemberFormer Member Posts: 1,876,323 The Mix Honorary Guru
I feel like the world ended for me.
everything i loved has chang and is gone, and nothing is ever the same. i cry all the time and feel like shit over someone i never met.
just would like to know why my ex-online lover would do what he did and would like to know your opinions about him and if you
think he ever loved me.this is going to be one big story so i'll try to get to the point
of it all.
my guy was from was 17 and so intelligent.
He's 6'0 green eyes, light brown
hair and French canadian.

He looked so nice, in fact
sorta like prince william's double and
yes those pictures were true and
yes i saw some ID on them and yes
i saw him on the webcam and he looked like
William. Well not just the looks but
he was intelligent, had an IQ of 180
got perfect As on everything he did
and damn it he was perfect with
every subject there was. Spoke perfect
english on the phone and wrote like a poet. He is already
in community college in quebec and
wants to be a doctor and for a fact
i know he will do make it.
I was not like him lets say I was
just imperfect compared to him, but he fell
in love with me through the internet and
we became g/f and b/f on march 1 of this year.
He would write me poems in french,
he would talk in the most nicest way,
he wrote long e-mails telling me how much he loved me
that he wanted to marry me and have like 10 kids with him.
I thought i was living the dream that someone loved me
and cared for me. He was going to come see
me this March 2002 for a week but that is all over
for such another matter other than this
but lets say if he loved he wouldn't care much of it.
So anyway it was like this for 8 months, till things changed.
He started to have his feelings changed
and that we should start seeing other people, but in the past
he would write me long e-mails of how we were going
to be together forever and so forth that he didn't care about
no one's opinion. In fact he did
personal things if you know what I mean cause he said
he loved me and wanted to share himself with me and that he
trusted me.
Thats one of the reasons he would take
pictures of himself hmm in very risky areas and I we were
together
so it was perfectly okay with us. We even did phone sex
all the time when we could late at night. Sorry to get
all personal but I want to tell you what went
on with us. In the end around late october
he completely changed I couldn't call him
without him sounding snappy and
he didn't care about me anymore. I went
a week without talking with him
but me being curious called him
and thats when he told me that he
had a girl there with him and that he couldn't talk.
He told me on phone that he would
chat around 9pm, so i got online and he doesn't even come.
He just tells me that he can't come
and that he apologizes. He also writes me
an e-mail saying how is falling in love
with some girl he studies with. Thing is that
he asked this girl out in late october
and so i was shocked when he told me.
Its like he didn't care about me and
all the things he told me about loving only me
and no one else and not caring about seeking other people.
He told me people thought he looked ugly in his town but
i never believed it, cause he looked so
perfect to me. I e-mailed him the other day
telling him how much i love him and how much i care
and that i miss those times. He doesn't reply and
so much I feel like he used me
and that I makes me feel like shit and I cry all the time now.
God why would he do that to me just forget me like that
after 8 months of everything, god he trusted me so much, how
can you
send crude pictures of yourself to another stranger? why did he
do that to me
and why did he tell me he loved me so much.
I felt like a princess when he loved me
and the world was everything, now its all over.
He doesn't care anymore, never goes online, does'nt check his
e-mails
I bet and I am still around and I just think life sucks.
I just wish I could die and I still cry for him
over 200 e-mails of pure perfection, but I bet he never meant
them.
Its hard to forget someone like Francois Couture, yep thats his
name.
Someone so perfect so handsome I really wanted to be with
him
for the rest of my life and be his wife and I wanted him
to make me perfect just like him. Now he's gone to a girl
named
Karine, and how i think she is the most luckiest
prettiest girl in the world.
i wish i could go to his town in quebec
and cry right there no kiss him so passionately and then
give him all the 200 e-mails and his little pictures to him.
that would be cool, but unrealistic, cause he never loved me.

Damn it my life sucks, Francois (Frankie) I hope your happy
out there, cause I'l always
love you no matter what and always will.
I'll always remember that Sleepless in seattle dream we both
have
and yeah I hope to see you there on the empire state
someday, i know i'll be there.

Do you people think Frankie ever loved me?was he playing
with me?

i just know he's going to have perfect life
in Quebec with his pretty wife his beautiful kids
and being a rich doctor, i just know.

Comments

  • Former MemberFormer Member Posts: 1,876,323 The Mix Honorary Guru
    well that will teach you to get more and not to sit around surfing the net all day won't it.
  • Former MemberFormer Member Posts: 1,876,323 The Mix Honorary Guru
    Originally posted by novakovino:
    well that will teach you to get more and not to sit around surfing the net all day won't it.

    Harsh!
  • Former MemberFormer Member Posts: 1,876,323 The Mix Honorary Guru
    but true.

    It sounds like the bloke must have had a lack of confidence and promised things he shouldnt have but lets be honest inetnet love isn't really ideal and it was only matter of time before it happened.

    Sortie- get over it and go out with your frinds and meet some people who anit far away. I get annoyed that I have to catch a bus for 20mins everynight to see my g.friend.
  • Former MemberFormer Member Posts: 1,876,323 The Mix Honorary Guru
    dont give up ur life for someone on the web this is not love it is a fantasy im sorry but its true just give up + concentrate on real life.
  • Former MemberFormer Member Posts: 1,876,323 The Mix Honorary Guru
    As WhoWhere said, what ppl have said to this so far is harsh.
    I met my ex over the internet, and we were together for 4 months before meeting(slightly different circumstances i know.. )
    I was in love with him, -or thought i was then.
    Although internet relationships are impractical, it's 1/2 that which makes them seem so appealing. You get to know only the parts of the other person which they want u to see, (i.e. none of the bad stuff) and because of that it is easy to believe them to be the be and end all.
    It alwasy goes wrong though, even if you do really like someone, if u find someone else closer to you they'll win, every time.
    You gotta use this to make u stronger cos the more u dwell on it, the worse it'll seem.
    He probably did love you, otherwise he wouldn't have implied it(or said it). but it is possible to fall out of love as u know, it probably wasn't even your fault.
    Be happy <IMG alt="image" SRC="http://www.thesite.org/ubb/smile.gif"&gt; n try n do things to take your mind off what's happened.

    good luck,

    xxxs


    No man is worth your tears, and the one who is wont make you cry.
  • Former MemberFormer Member Posts: 1,876,323 The Mix Honorary Guru
    Originally posted by Sortie:
    he was intelligent, had an IQ of 180.

    Bullshit, 100 is the average IQ score and they don't mean shit anyway. You can not measure intelligence. You can only measure if he knew the answers to those questions. 180? No way! This guy is a liar... I couldn't even be arsed to read the rest of the thread after this.

    Sorry to hear that you feel so down, try to get over this guy. He is obviously full of shit, I'd like to kick those 180 IQ points out of his lying arse. IQ of 180, what was his name; Albert fucking Einstein?
  • Former MemberFormer Member Posts: 1,876,323 The Mix Honorary Guru
    Aaawww Kirk you spoiled it for me, i did a MENSA IQ thingy and was given a rating of 158! You've ruined it for me, i thought i was clever *sobs*

    All evil needs to thrive is for good men to sit back and do nothing
  • Former MemberFormer Member Posts: 1,876,323 The Mix Honorary Guru
    Quiet Marmite or that nasty Kirk will turn on you! I've seen it happen and it ain't nice!

    <IMG alt="image" SRC="http://www.stopstart.fsnet.co.uk/smilie/badrazz.gif"&gt; It's all in the tounge, baby! <IMG alt="image" SRC="http://www.stopstart.fsnet.co.uk/smilie/badrazz.gif"&gt;
  • Former MemberFormer Member Posts: 1,876,323 The Mix Honorary Guru
    Originally posted by Cunning Linguist:
    Quiet Marmite or that nasty Kirk will turn on you! I've seen it happen and it ain't nice!

    please be gentle.

    All evil needs to thrive is for good men to sit back and do nothing
  • Former MemberFormer Member Posts: 1,876,323 The Mix Honorary Guru
    Hello, i'm new to this site but thought ur email deserved a reply. My ex bf sort of did the same thing to me, we met on the internet and we met. He told me he loved me and made me feel really confident about myself, we talked about marriage and having children together. But then he changed and said we should just be friends, coz he hadn't found any1 else but he was looking! I kept trying to call him, texting him and emailing him and after crying every day for months i finally realised he wasn't worth it. Remembering when he told me he wished i was dead (when we were still 2gether!) Looking back i can see he wasn't as perfect as i thought. Now i've met some1 who is everything i've ever wanted and my ex is nothing compared to him. You'll meet some1 better, who will treat u like u deserve to be treated. Cheer up, no man is worth the tears and the one who is will never make you cry. Hope this helps.
  • Former MemberFormer Member Posts: 1,876,323 The Mix Honorary Guru
    he got bored, realised that an internet relationship, whilst half the relationship, is still total bullshit - what real person wants a purely communicative relationship? surely the ability to touch, feel, physically love someone is equally important?

    anyways, my best advice now is dont hang on to lost love, it'll just cause u more grief than it's worth. love is bullshit, the whole concept is the biggest con known to man. holding out for years and years until finally u meet someone, but all the hurt, the suffering, the pain - for fucks sake, if there was a god he'd make it far more efficient.

    If there's anything more important than my ego around here, i want it caught and shot now
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