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I wanna be a laywer
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This may belong in the edu forum, but I'm not sure. Feel free to move it.
But really, I want to be a lawyer. I've wanted to be since I was in 7th grade ( 11years old) Since I knew what it was. I know its not as fun as they show on TV. I know you don't make anywhere near as much money as they seem. But its always been whats interested me. Its what I want to do. But I can't. I don't have the money. I don't have the money and I don't have the time. To make the time I lose the money. My parents keep telling me (or hinting at me) to find something that I can do cheaply and quickly. But I dont' want that. I want to finish my 2 years of college to get my bachlors Degree. I want to take another 3 years to get my law degree. I'd start in some shitty job. I don't care.
But nobody, nobody at all thinks I can do it. Everybody knows I don't have the money or the time to do it. Nobody thinks I have what it takes to be one. I dont' want to be some fake TV show lawyer. I know the differences. The fact that you can't even approach the witness. I want to deal with contracts. I want to be a contract lawyer.
I'm so afraid that I'll be a fucking secretary the rest of my life.
But really, I want to be a lawyer. I've wanted to be since I was in 7th grade ( 11years old) Since I knew what it was. I know its not as fun as they show on TV. I know you don't make anywhere near as much money as they seem. But its always been whats interested me. Its what I want to do. But I can't. I don't have the money. I don't have the money and I don't have the time. To make the time I lose the money. My parents keep telling me (or hinting at me) to find something that I can do cheaply and quickly. But I dont' want that. I want to finish my 2 years of college to get my bachlors Degree. I want to take another 3 years to get my law degree. I'd start in some shitty job. I don't care.
But nobody, nobody at all thinks I can do it. Everybody knows I don't have the money or the time to do it. Nobody thinks I have what it takes to be one. I dont' want to be some fake TV show lawyer. I know the differences. The fact that you can't even approach the witness. I want to deal with contracts. I want to be a contract lawyer.
I'm so afraid that I'll be a fucking secretary the rest of my life.
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You won't be a secretary for the rest of your life. *Hugs*
But just maybe they don't actually realise what they're doing.
May be a stupid question, but have you tried talking to them about it, adult to adult? Tell them how long you've wanted this, tell them how determined you are to succeed, sell them on the idea.
It's still a sore subject, especially when she never gives off about my dad being a writer- the hardest job in the world to earn a living off of! When I have kids, I'll let them study whatever they want.
Unless it's like, a BA in flea circus management or something random :chin:
TBH he doesn't have any right to tell me what to be anyway because he doesn't have a job. As if being a house-husband is a real job!
Which is a load of bollocks, really.
not one person in my chambers comes from a "posh" background, few solicitors ever do. You won't get into a Magic Circle firm without contacts and a super degree, but who wants to work for the Magic Circle?
Most of us are just happy plodding along. I'm just sad my contract here has come to an end now.
Well studying would be part time, that was the only plan really. I need money for myself. Later the night I wrote this I got fed up and just called my parents. I drunkly cried and blubbered for a bit, then we got talking logically.
In the very begining they always said I can do whatever I want and they will always be there to help. Then as I got older, finished highschool and moved away they started suggesting I do other things. Things that would only take a few years to complete, or less than that.
I found out their reasoning behind it is that I was having such a hard time living. Working in retail making absolute shit for money, not living at all. They wanted me to be happy and have money and do something I liked. Something quicker would make my life easier quicker. Good reasoning.
We talked more and I found out more. Right now I have a full time job with all the fun benefits. I make enough money to live. I live in a nice house and everything is finally getting comforable. I now have the means to do what I want.
I was scared, as they always said they would pay for my college, but my brother has gotten full ride scholorships all 5 years so far, and has one for next year too. So I got skeptical, that having nothing, they may take back what they said.
They assured me they wouldn't. They would always be there to financially get me thru and always be there in general.
I believe them. I know they would never leave me hang to dry. I had spent nearly a week in pretty much the same room. Total cabin fever. Drunk, too much vicodin and I just lost it.
But it was for the better. Having done that I not only got the reassurance from my parents that I needed, but I also reassured myself that I do want more than to be a secretary. That I still had it in me to be something more.
I applied for the college that interested me. Only one so far as I'm still taking things slowly. But one is still one.
Thank you all for your nice comments.