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I need a life...
Indrid Cold
Posts: 16,688 Skive's The Limit
I was just at some "high school reunion" with my old classmates, and right now I feel worse than I usually do.
These people have changed! C, who was after a different girl each week, is in a stable relationship for almost a year now. E is almost getting married (not literally). S managed to let the whole time I was there pass without making the sound of a duck. Ch still plays football like a maniac, but he's grown a lot more serious (not exactly a good thing, but that's beside the point). D (the only one I've kept contact with, unlike most others who still meet) always has something planned and needs to go after some time. And all that in not even a full year.
Only I have remained the same lonely, almost-never-speaking, no-life, low-IQ nerd I was back then. I talk to different people and I spend most of my time in different surroundings, but it's almost as if someone used cut-and-paste to put me there. I still can't bring myself to ask anyone for their phone number, I still spend my non-school/uni time at home alone, I still feel the same things I felt then.
I need a bleeping change. Not in my life, if I change myself that will follow. I need to not feel so alone. I need someone (or, even better, some people) that I can trust, who will trust me. I need to spend sometime without always having my mind on what I could be doing, because I would be doing it.
Sorry for the rant. I don't really expect to hear anything amazing, as I doubt there's any advice on this I haven't already heard. I needed to tell all that to someone.
These people have changed! C, who was after a different girl each week, is in a stable relationship for almost a year now. E is almost getting married (not literally). S managed to let the whole time I was there pass without making the sound of a duck. Ch still plays football like a maniac, but he's grown a lot more serious (not exactly a good thing, but that's beside the point). D (the only one I've kept contact with, unlike most others who still meet) always has something planned and needs to go after some time. And all that in not even a full year.
Only I have remained the same lonely, almost-never-speaking, no-life, low-IQ nerd I was back then. I talk to different people and I spend most of my time in different surroundings, but it's almost as if someone used cut-and-paste to put me there. I still can't bring myself to ask anyone for their phone number, I still spend my non-school/uni time at home alone, I still feel the same things I felt then.
I need a bleeping change. Not in my life, if I change myself that will follow. I need to not feel so alone. I need someone (or, even better, some people) that I can trust, who will trust me. I need to spend sometime without always having my mind on what I could be doing, because I would be doing it.
Sorry for the rant. I don't really expect to hear anything amazing, as I doubt there's any advice on this I haven't already heard. I needed to tell all that to someone.
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