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Cheers for the replies so far.....
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Cheers lolly and Spirit II both your replies.
I agree with both of you that even though we tell others that and therefore try to convice ourselves that we would never use again, deep down somehow we know that we will. Be it either drugs, alcohol, food, sex etc.... What makes an addictive personality? Is it something that stems from childhood? I've been doing a lot of research trying to find out why are we like this... What's this massive hole were trying to fill? It's not just a case of going out and taking something to have a good time. It's a lot deeper rooted than that. I was emotionally unhappy as a child even though I come from a loving but very strict Greek Cypriot family, I've always tried to escape something. I ended up getting married at 18 to escape them, that lasted for 7 years - then left him and then I went totally off the rails escaping into the drugs world. I've never really been able to face up to and deal with my emotions. I'm still finding it really hard now. How do you start to deal with lifes realities without running off getting totally off it, so you don't have to deal with or feel anything?
I agree with both of you that even though we tell others that and therefore try to convice ourselves that we would never use again, deep down somehow we know that we will. Be it either drugs, alcohol, food, sex etc.... What makes an addictive personality? Is it something that stems from childhood? I've been doing a lot of research trying to find out why are we like this... What's this massive hole were trying to fill? It's not just a case of going out and taking something to have a good time. It's a lot deeper rooted than that. I was emotionally unhappy as a child even though I come from a loving but very strict Greek Cypriot family, I've always tried to escape something. I ended up getting married at 18 to escape them, that lasted for 7 years - then left him and then I went totally off the rails escaping into the drugs world. I've never really been able to face up to and deal with my emotions. I'm still finding it really hard now. How do you start to deal with lifes realities without running off getting totally off it, so you don't have to deal with or feel anything?
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I must admit though I do get homesick, but then the thought of coming back also scares me.... Maybe its just too soon.