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Girl-From-Mars

scottish angel... i have a weird question. does the name jessica butler ring any bells to you? you just sound like someone i know from somewhere else on the internet.

if not, then dont worry <IMG alt="image" alt="image" SRC="http://www.thesite.org/ubb/smile.gif"&gt;

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"That which does not kill us makes us stronger."
~ Nietzsche

Former Member

Originally posted by scottish_angel:

I said it was ok, but i spent the rest of the day in tears. the thing is, i wanted to see her to tell her about how i'm really not coping. At the mo, for no apparent reason, i can't help thinking about my nephew who died. I feel really awful, and feel like a bad p[erson - i can't remember his birthday, i can't remember how old he was, i can hardly remember wot he looked like. And, this is the worst part, i feel like he never existed. I mean, i feel like he was never real, he was just a name. I know this probably makes no sense, but its getting 2 me. Wot kind of person must i be? I don't know wether i want to talk, or don't want to. When i talked a little bit about it, i got really upset, and just remembered all the things i'd forgottena bout him. When think about these things, i get even more upset.

I think that this is natural & it's part of your self preservation mechanism. Don't be hard on yourself, it's probably important for you to have forgotten so much. When you are strong enough to grieve properly, it will come back. In the meantime, allow yourself to forget and don't beat yourself up about it.
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Former Member

sorry to disappoint g-f-m, but it means absolutely nothing wotsoever to me. But if u don't mind me asking, why did i remind u of her? Coz mayb she is the one person who may understand what i'm talking about

Former Member

no i do get u , i have no relationship with mine either. we rarely even say hello to each other. u most likely dont believe me, but i thought id say it anyway

Girl-From-Mars

Originally posted by scottish_angel:
sorry to disappoint g-f-m, but it means absolutely nothing wotsoever to me. But if u don't mind me asking, why did i remind u of her? Coz mayb she is the one person who may understand what i'm talking about

ok dont worry <IMG alt="image" alt="image" SRC="http://www.thesite.org/ubb/smile.gif"&gt; its just this girl's livejournal i read, she cuts/used to cut ... and she talks to a teacher about it too. and has become.. quite attached to the teacher i suppose, and i think shes coming up to finishing school for the summer/for good? and it just sounded a bit similar. ill put a message in her livejournal and ask if she would mind talking to you about all this or something, or if i can give you her email address <IMG alt="image" alt="image" SRC="http://www.thesite.org/ubb/smile.gif"&gt;

(i dont want to post thesite's addressi nlivejournal, coz there are people there i would really rather didnt find this site...)

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"That which does not kill us makes us stronger."
~ Nietzsche

Former Member

Hello <IMG alt="image" alt="image" SRC="http://www.thesite.org/ubb/smile.gif"&gt;
I am Jessica Butler. Heh, this is weird, my reputation precedes me!
Anyway.. feel completely free to e-mail me (wingsoftrinity@subdimension.com) or whatever <IMG alt="image" alt="image" SRC="http://www.thesite.org/ubb/smile.gif"&gt; Your situation sounds so eerily similar to mine, and I know how helpful it is to have people who understand.
I also co-moderate a Self-Injury Support forum, which you may find helpful. m pretty sure we have some threads about scars there, too.
Okay... so... this feels really weird, I'm sorry...
Get in touch or something, it would be cool to talk to you <IMG alt="image" alt="image" SRC="http://www.thesite.org/ubb/smile.gif"&gt;
~** Jess

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[This message has been edited by WingsOfTrinity (edited 29-06-2001).]

Girl-From-Mars

sorry jess <IMG alt="image" alt="image" SRC="http://www.thesite.org/ubb/smile.gif"&gt;

oh you cant use HTML here, we use UBB instead, if yuo click post reply then theres a link saying "UBB COde is ON" which explains it all <IMG alt="image" alt="image" SRC="http://www.thesite.org/ubb/smile.gif"&gt;

but you can just paste links in and they link automatically <IMG alt="image" alt="image" SRC="http://www.thesite.org/ubb/smile.gif"&gt;

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"That which does not kill us makes us stronger."
~ Nietzsche

Former Member

Hee hee yeah, I realised that after I posted, but I couldn't see it to edit.
I know all the UBB stuff; I use another board but it uses html as well.
Don't apologise for anything! Thank you for bringing me here <IMG alt="image" alt="image" SRC="http://www.thesite.org/ubb/smile.gif"&gt;
~** Jess

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Girl-From-Mars

Originally posted by WingsOfTrinity:
Hee hee yeah, I realised that after I posted, but I couldn't see it to edit.
I know all the UBB stuff; I use another board but it uses html as well.
Don't apologise for anything! Thank you for bringing me here <IMG alt="image" alt="image" SRC="http://www.thesite.org/ubb/smile.gif"&gt;
~** Jess

i realised you knew all that after i saw ome other posts youd made but couldnt be bothered coming back to change it <IMG alt="image" alt="image" SRC="http://www.thesite.org/ubb/tongue.gif"&gt;

and about bringing you here... you're welcome, and in fact, my pleasure (and many other people here im guessing, either now or in the future <IMG alt="image" alt="image" SRC="http://www.thesite.org/ubb/smile.gif"&gt; )

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"That which does not kill us makes us stronger."
~ Nietzsche

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