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lonely & depressed
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Hi I’ve introduced myself in Relationships, but just in case there are other people in here that don’t know me, I’m 17 f newbie from essex (no jokes plz). I’m a pretty fcuked up kid. I have depression and I hate myself and want to die. No-one will eva want to go out with me cause I’m fat and ugly and don’t av a personality. I don’t know who I am. I stopped bein myself wen I used 2 get bullied all the time. Now I have a low self esteem and come on too strong 2 guys coz I want sum1, not necessarily a bf, just someone that cares. Just a real friend. I have “associates” but nobody that I can connect with if u know what I mean. My counsellor says I have been thru a lot of trauma all by myself, and I am lonely and have no1 2 turn to. Thanks, but plz don’t tel me stuff wot I already know! My dad hates me, my mum dusent care. I want a friend. I’m a perfectionist bcoz I feel like I av 2 prove myself 2 ppl. I have nothing else 2 do ‘cept wk, I neva go out. Sumtimes I feel so bad I physically can’t get up in the morning, I can’t eat, I can’t sleep. I feel like I’m watching time go by, and waiting to die.
i just did that depression test that is mentioned in another post. i got 78 (severe depression) and i did it honestly i swear. Is my life even worth living?
[This message has been edited by Drifter (edited 09-01-2001).]
i just did that depression test that is mentioned in another post. i got 78 (severe depression) and i did it honestly i swear. Is my life even worth living?
[This message has been edited by Drifter (edited 09-01-2001).]
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You're not the only one in that situation you know, even if it feels like it, and the vast majority of people who are depressed as teenagers gradually get happier and lead the lives they want to. It's also not true that noone will ever want to go out with you even if you were fat and ugly (you're almost certainly not as bad as you think you are), you just have to try your best to be friendly and nice to people. In the end you will meet nice people, and will find someone to love you.
If you're really worried about your weight just try and do some exercise. Don't diet, just cut down on snacks, chocolate and crisps etc and eat regular meals. Going for a run or even just a long walk regularly can help a lot (swimming's good if you like that too).
yeah, 78 means you are fucked up.
doesn't mean life isn't worth living.
it's good that you are getting counselling, I hope it is doing you some good - it can be such hit and miss. See your GP
Sorry to hear that you're having such a bad time at the moment. I just wanted to add a couple of things:
Firstly, depression is a treatable illness. If you are feeling suicidal, your GP may be able to help as well as your counsellor.
Secondly, you will get lots of support from people here at TheSite. Many of the people here have been through similar experiences and will be able to help and support you through the bad times.
We also have lots of articles here that may be useful to you:
http://www.thesite.org/health/headstate/
http://community.netdoktor.com/ccs/uk/depression/facts/testyourself/index.jsp
I fink it's realy gr8 dat ur goin 2 da docs. I'm sure they can help u, and u av a lot more confidence than i do. I can't go bak again, i was only there on monday. He wil fink im realy strange. Ok, i am, but dat dusent mean i want other ppl to fink it lol. Ppl dont take da pis outta me nemore, they jus used 2, years ago, and i ges i av neva bin da same since. Gud luck @ ur appointment
Hi <IMG alt="image" alt="image" SRC="http://www.thesite.org/ubb/biggrin.gif">!!
Dont put yourself down! I know it must be hard for you but try and phase it all out!!! Life is worth living for don't wish for death!No one knows how you feel,so only you can do something about how you feel talk to someone you can trust,let it all out how you feel,then people will understand and try and help you!!!
On the site we are all friends(hope so anyway) we'll be there for each other!So dont feel left out!!!
Mind you I only went to the GP after I spent 3 hours sat on my bed not daring to to move because despite knowing that killing myself was not a solution it certainly felt like one.
Don't let it get that bad.
Thanks for all the support tho guys <IMG alt="image" alt="image" SRC="http://www.thesite.org/ubb/smile.gif">
U sound safe 2 me, bullies at school(I'm probably an offendr of this) well we suck, u shouldnt take n e thing to heart, seriously I cant really put a finger on y we ppl bully.. I guess I did it loads, cos the ppl I bullied I didnt know at all, unfotunately as soon as 1 person says summing every1 will get a hold of it, n u have to b pretty damn lucky to get out of it, n believe me it's true when ppl say that bullies r insecure themselves.
Really u sound like u do need a proffesional to speak to... n dont hold n e thing back when u talk to them, they understand.
But also The Net is a really good place to build ur confidence n self esteem, u sound like a real nice person, n if u speak to ppl on here, it'll make it easier to speak to ppl in life... <IMG alt="image" alt="image" SRC="http://www.thesite.org/ubb/smile.gif"> <IMG alt="image" alt="image" SRC="http://www.thesite.org/ubb/smile.gif"> <IMG alt="image" alt="image" SRC="http://www.thesite.org/ubb/smile.gif">
Hey, sum1 called me a nice person <IMG alt="image" alt="image" SRC="http://www.thesite.org/ubb/smile.gif">
{{{daze}}}
Why is the net a gud place 2 build self esteem? I duno if it'll make it easier 2 speak 2 ppl in real life, coz u can't just "log off" in real life.
u do sound really nice.
i know what you mean about the logging off part, because its easy to make people go away online. but, people on here are still real, and on thesite u get alot of real problems and situations. its not the same, and you have more chance to think about your response. but at the same time, it helps you get used to the swing of things, and gives you the confidence to bring yourself out a bit more in public.
somebody get me out of here.
sum1 esle called me nice! <IMG alt="image" alt="image" SRC="http://www.thesite.org/ubb/biggrin.gif">
It dus giv u more time 2 fink bout ya response. Wen i speak 2 ppl i sumtimes get panicky and out of breath and then i go red and want to die. Or sumtimes i cant get the words out and stand there lookin like a lemon.
I av bin talkin on the net 4 a while now, but only jus found thesite. I never really made ne friends on the net, jus general chit chat, but now i think iv found a place where evry1's really gr8 and helpful. I hope i can make sum really gud friends on here. Maybe that will make me more confident in real life.
Oh and i got some St. John's Wort, a herbal remedy for depression. I duno whether it wil work, but i fink i wil giv it a go until i get da guts 2 go bak 2 da docs.
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somebody get me out of here.
thanx for the hug btw <IMG alt="image" alt="image" SRC="http://www.thesite.org/ubb/biggrin.gif">
And it's 2 late, im already hooked. I've only been registered a week, and i can't get enuf!
The more sand that escapes through the hourglass of time, the clearer we should be able to see through it.
[This message has been edited by Drifter (edited 13-01-2001).]
when i first came on the net, about 3 years ago now, i was really lonely and didnt have any real friends, mine were really shit. and i found lots of people to talk to who i became close to within about a week sometimes. anyway it helped me out having people to talk to and care about me, even if i had never met them. and now ive made really good friends on the net, 2 of which i count among my best friends (i only have 4 of those, 5 when the other person isnt away at uni! so 4 and a part time one). i have never met either of them, i may meet one in the near future (ish), i may not. he'll still be one of my best friends though. damn site better than most of mine in real life!!!!
anyway i met my ex boyfriend online and that gave me a lot more confidence. 6th form in fact did, i walked in on the first day and it was suddenly as if all the problems with shyness had gone away and i could talk in class. which was odd. probably to do with the boyfriend though, i met him the summer before it started!
but ill shut up about me, just saying that the net can be a great place. i hope you find some good friends here too <IMG alt="image" alt="image" SRC="http://www.thesite.org/ubb/smile.gif"> if you talk on instant messengers or chat rooms you have a more "realistic" relationship with them.
ill go now coz this is getting long <IMG alt="image" alt="image" SRC="http://www.thesite.org/ubb/smile.gif"> once you leave school and can be away from all the people who are immature and nasty, then it'll get better, believe me.
If you don't know where you're going, you'll probably end up somewhere else.
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