Didn’t get on my placement. I'm a failure

Redemption

I am a failure guys. I’ve felt this way on and off for a long time. I feel so behind, inferior, and like I’m not where I should be. Back in September, I applied for a placement and got a taster session, a chance to show what I could do, but I didn’t get it. Yesterday, I had another taster session for a different placement, and I had the call a few minutes ago for the feedback that wasn’t successful again for yesterday's one. I was late to the session yesterday because I couldn’t find the place, which didn’t help. Being late this time partly affected the outcome, but there were other reasons I didn’t get it too. I also had an interview for an airport job a while ago. I was late to that as well, but I don’t think that played a role in not getting it. Still, I didn’t get that either. Both recent placements were opportunities to prove myself, and I feel like I blew them. I know there are other options out there, and I do have some support, but it just feels so disheartening to have failed twice like this. I’ve been putting effort in and trying to push forward, but I still feel stuck. These repeated setbacks keep knocking me down and making me question everything. I’m frustrated, drained, and it feels like everyone else is moving on while I’m just stuck in place.

Azziman

Hey @Redemption - thank you for sharing how you feel with us here. I can hear how the recent experiences with placements didn't go as expected, and that you're upset with that - that's completely valid. You were really hopeful on getting these opportunities, so I can hear how it's disheartening when you hear that they didn't progress.

Well done for all the work you've put in to get these opportunities - it shouldn't go unrecognised and unappreciated that you've worked hard to get these chances in the first place. It sounds like it has been a draining journey, so it's important to make sure you give yourself time to feel those feelings and process what has happened - don't be too hard on yourself for what happened.

Feeling rejected is a painful part of the job hunting process, but taking the lessons from it (e.g. the feedback call you received, and mentions of turning up late) will be good things to work on for the next opportunity. We can see the work you're putting in, and these chances might not have gone your way, but keep up your effort and I'm hopeful you'll get more opportunities come your way. We're here to support you through this!

Redemption

Azziman wrote: »

Hey @Redemption - thank you for sharing how you feel with us here. I can hear how the recent experiences with placements didn't go as expected, and that you're upset with that - that's completely valid. You were really hopeful on getting these opportunities, so I can hear how it's disheartening when you hear that they didn't progress.

Well done for all the work you've put in to get these opportunities - it shouldn't go unrecognised and unappreciated that you've worked hard to get these chances in the first place. It sounds like it has been a draining journey, so it's important to make sure you give yourself time to feel those feelings and process what has happened - don't be too hard on yourself for what happened.

Feeling rejected is a painful part of the job hunting process, but taking the lessons from it (e.g. the feedback call you received, and mentions of turning up late) will be good things to work on for the next opportunity. We can see the work you're putting in, and these chances might not have gone your way, but keep up your effort and I'm hopeful you'll get more opportunities come your way. We're here to support you through this!

@Azziman thank you so much for your reply here and other replies too, so kind of you. Really appreciate it, great replies too of course very insightful and positive.