(Suicidal thoughts and body image) I wish my parents never gave birth to me

bignosegirly0

I hate my fucking body so much. I know that in the past, being underweight was the ideal look and heroine chic was in fashion. But nowadays, the modern standards for women is to be curvy and have big tits / ass.


My mom’s side of the family are all skinny and lack fat. I have that genetic as well but it doesn’t help that I’m flat chested, tall, no curves and can’t build glutes. I hate being tall and lanky.

If I was short and flat, I would have gotten away with it because men would think you’re cute and petite.

But because I’m tall and flat, I just appear manly.

Even when I got to the gym to grow glute muscles, I’m still unable to because of my poor genetics.

It sounds awful, but I wish my parents never had me because I’m stuck with bad genetics and no man will ever love me because of it.

I hate my body.

I just want to die.

independent_

There’s not going to be much I can say to reassure you on this one, but from a fellow tall somewhat flat chested lady, all is definitely not lost. Just like there are such wide varieties of body shapes for women, there is a massive variation in what men like, and eventually you’ll find one that likes you for you (if that’s what you want). Plus, bodies can change so much over time.

Azziman

Hey @bignosegirly0. I'm sorry to hear how you're feeling. It sounds like this is something that you're really upset with. I can hear that you're frustrated with how you look, especially with genetics as it's not something we can control ourselves. @independent_ makes valid points above. We're really glad that you're here with us, as part of this community. You matter to us, and you deserve to be heard and loved.

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