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(TW mentions of self harm and suicidal thoughts) I'm worried Kalms won't help me
bignosegirly0
Posts: 89 Budding Regular
I'm not in a mentally stable headspace, and I've gotten worse over the times and relapsed due to constant harassment from a bully's friends outside of work.
Many times in the past, I have reached out for help when struggling with self harm. However, it only ends up with professionals contacting my family. Then they would yell at me, call me selfish, spoilt, childish and an attention seeker. Hence, I deal with issues of self harm on my own.
In the past (Only after my parents have been contacted), I've been put on sertraline which is provided by GP. However, my family wanted me to get off them because they don't want me to be dependent on medication.
I am unable to get in contact with my GP because one, they'll snitch on me like other professionals. Two, I don't have a car to travel to them (Although I'm taking my theory test in a month).
I want to desperately go back on medication, but since I'm unable to, I decided to purchase what I would describe as low budget medication.
I've heard aromatherapy is meant to help with intense emotions, I brought this up with my family and they suggested I take Kalms. Apparently, everyone in my family has taken it and it helps a lot.
TW:
Many times in the past, I have reached out for help when struggling with self harm. However, it only ends up with professionals contacting my family. Then they would yell at me, call me selfish, spoilt, childish and an attention seeker. Hence, I deal with issues of self harm on my own.
In the past (Only after my parents have been contacted), I've been put on sertraline which is provided by GP. However, my family wanted me to get off them because they don't want me to be dependent on medication.
I am unable to get in contact with my GP because one, they'll snitch on me like other professionals. Two, I don't have a car to travel to them (Although I'm taking my theory test in a month).
I want to desperately go back on medication, but since I'm unable to, I decided to purchase what I would describe as low budget medication.
I've heard aromatherapy is meant to help with intense emotions, I brought this up with my family and they suggested I take Kalms. Apparently, everyone in my family has taken it and it helps a lot.
TW:
[When I woke up, feeling scared and low, I took two tablets of Kalms, I still felt low. Luckily, I felt calmer, but I still felt depressed, wishing I was dead. I'm still safe as I'm making this post. But I still feel hopeless and want to die.]
I fear that my medication won't work and that the next time I get harassed by my bully's friends outside of work, I'll give them what I want and burst into tears.
I know the harassment won't stop. I've told my manager about the situation, but it's gotten worse. And I'm unable to quit because I'm unable to get a new job. I've been job searching for ages and I've received constant rejections.
TW:
I fear that my medication won't work and that the next time I get harassed by my bully's friends outside of work, I'll give them what I want and burst into tears.
I know the harassment won't stop. I've told my manager about the situation, but it's gotten worse. And I'm unable to quit because I'm unable to get a new job. I've been job searching for ages and I've received constant rejections.
TW:
[I just want to die. I fear the only way I'll stop being harassed is if I gave them what they want and kill myself.]
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