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so so done with life

struggling0_0struggling0_0 Posts: 108 The Mix Convert
im sorry to be annoying but i’m so fucking annoyed. i don’t understand what makes me so undeserving if support. what have i done that’s such an issue:(

i’m trying so so hard and getting nowhere. it’s like im screaming for help but no one hears. i genuinely don’t know what to do anymore. i’m so fucking tired of reaching out and not getting help. i am really struggling tonight so reached out to calm, they joined the chat and said “Hi there, thank you for reaching out. Unfortunately, as explained before with you CALM have changed and tightened their remit which means that we are not longer able to support you beyond this point. We are strictly suicide specific now for people needing immediate help and do not offer long term support. If you are looking for a chat this evening you can always head on over to samaritans.org or https://giveusashout.org/ . We wish you the very best. Take good care, CALM.” - i don’t know what to do now. i am not using shout as i dont need police coming. there is no other places that offer a webchat / messaging service open right now. i can’t phone as i struggle with communicating how i feel verbally.

i don’t understand the point in helplines when they refuse help. i was using calm for their purpose, and im still a problem. i really do give up forreal. there’s no point talking to college about it either as im just an issue there too. i hate myself. i hate life.

i’m safe rn.

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  • JMMV2005JMMV2005 Posts: 116 The Mix Convert
    @struggling0_0 I’m sorry you feel like this

    It’s not because you don’t deserve help that helplines aren’t helping, it’s just that they get so many people asking them to help it’s hard for them to manage it all so they end up prioritising urgent messages, so it’s not your fault

    If you want help or want to talk your on a good website, feel free to post anything you need to get off your chest in the chat forums here, and if your comfortable with it I’m happy for you to talk to me if you need someone to talk to

  • struggling0_0struggling0_0 Posts: 108 The Mix Convert
    @JMMV2005 thanks:) but refusing support because other people are a bigger priority than me is unfair. i literally reached out to them due to suicidal thoughts and yeah i don’t matter clearly. i give up trying forreal lol
  • JMMV2005JMMV2005 Posts: 116 The Mix Convert
    @struggling0_0 I agree that it’s unfair, you deserve the support you need

    Your doing the right thing by talking about it here though, remember that, and there are ways you can get the help you need it just may not be through helplines but through something like seeing a doctor or someone in real life, I don’t know how you’d feel about it though because talking to people in real life is scarier than messaging someone and you said you struggle to communicate your point, but if it’s for your own well being it’s definitely worth facing the fear, and if you do see someone in real life write down what points you want to get across on a list and use that as reference when you’re talking to them

    I’m not sure if this is helpful or not, sorry if it isn’t, but I want to try and help if I can
  • eylaheylah Posts: 5,803 Part of The Furniture
    im sorry to be annoying but i’m so fucking annoyed. i don’t understand what makes me so undeserving if support. what have i done that’s such an issue:(

    i’m trying so so hard and getting nowhere. it’s like im screaming for help but no one hears. i genuinely don’t know what to do anymore. i’m so fucking tired of reaching out and not getting help. i am really struggling tonight so reached out to calm, they joined the chat and said “Hi there, thank you for reaching out. Unfortunately, as explained before with you CALM have changed and tightened their remit which means that we are not longer able to support you beyond this point. We are strictly suicide specific now for people needing immediate help and do not offer long term support. If you are looking for a chat this evening you can always head on over to samaritans.org or https://giveusashout.org/ . We wish you the very best. Take good care, CALM.” - i don’t know what to do now. i am not using shout as i dont need police coming. there is no other places that offer a webchat / messaging service open right now. i can’t phone as i struggle with communicating how i feel verbally.

    i don’t understand the point in helplines when they refuse help. i was using calm for their purpose, and im still a problem. i really do give up forreal. there’s no point talking to college about it either as im just an issue there too. i hate myself. i hate life.

    i’m safe rn.

    just wanted to say that samaritans do a 1-2-1 chat from 6pm and its not available to everyone but they wont call police or anything unless you give them your details. ( i know from experience). also there’s a webchat helpline that wont share what you say unless you ask them to or give your details that webchat messaging service is called kellys heroes. were here for you if your at risk or in danger pls call 111 or 999 for emergency support as the mix isnt a crisis service <3.
    keep your face always toward the sunshine and shadows will fall behind you. 🤍

    pfp made by @Chloe234 ❤️
  • struggling0_0struggling0_0 Posts: 108 The Mix Convert
    also i literally said “hi im really struggling tonight with
    JMMV2005 wrote: »
    @struggling0_0 I agree that it’s unfair, you deserve the support you need

    Your doing the right thing by talking about it here though, remember that, and there are ways you can get the help you need it just may not be through helplines but through something like seeing a doctor or someone in real life, I don’t know how you’d feel about it though because talking to people in real life is scarier than messaging someone and you said you struggle to communicate your point, but if it’s for your own well being it’s definitely worth facing the fear, and if you do see someone in real life write down what points you want to get across on a list and use that as reference when you’re talking to them

    I’m not sure if this is helpful or not, sorry if it isn’t, but I want to try and help if I can

    i’m so sorry if i’ve came across cheeky to you, i know you’re just trying to help, im sorry:(

    i have been to doctors, under cmht, seeing a psychologist, spoke to wellbeing at college and the list goes on and on and on. i should still be able to access support through a helpline though in times when i really need it…?
  • struggling0_0struggling0_0 Posts: 108 The Mix Convert
    eylah wrote: »
    im sorry to be annoying but i’m so fucking annoyed. i don’t understand what makes me so undeserving if support. what have i done that’s such an issue:(

    i’m trying so so hard and getting nowhere. it’s like im screaming for help but no one hears. i genuinely don’t know what to do anymore. i’m so fucking tired of reaching out and not getting help. i am really struggling tonight so reached out to calm, they joined the chat and said “Hi there, thank you for reaching out. Unfortunately, as explained before with you CALM have changed and tightened their remit which means that we are not longer able to support you beyond this point. We are strictly suicide specific now for people needing immediate help and do not offer long term support. If you are looking for a chat this evening you can always head on over to samaritans.org or https://giveusashout.org/ . We wish you the very best. Take good care, CALM.” - i don’t know what to do now. i am not using shout as i dont need police coming. there is no other places that offer a webchat / messaging service open right now. i can’t phone as i struggle with communicating how i feel verbally.

    i don’t understand the point in helplines when they refuse help. i was using calm for their purpose, and im still a problem. i really do give up forreal. there’s no point talking to college about it either as im just an issue there too. i hate myself. i hate life.

    i’m safe rn.

    just wanted to say that samaritans do a 1-2-1 chat from 6pm and its not available to everyone but they wont call police or anything unless you give them your details. ( i know from experience). also there’s a webchat helpline that wont share what you say unless you ask them to or give your details that webchat messaging service is called kellys heroes. were here for you if your at risk or in danger pls call 111 or 999 for emergency support as the mix isnt a crisis service <3.

    thank you @eylah 🌟

    i’m not in danger rn, i know the mix isn’t a crisis service i just needed to vent about how frustrated i am that even helplines refuse me support:(

    im really sorry if this comes across cheeky as i really don’t mean for that so i do apologise if it does.
  • eylaheylah Posts: 5,803 Part of The Furniture
    eylah wrote: »
    im sorry to be annoying but i’m so fucking annoyed. i don’t understand what makes me so undeserving if support. what have i done that’s such an issue:(

    i’m trying so so hard and getting nowhere. it’s like im screaming for help but no one hears. i genuinely don’t know what to do anymore. i’m so fucking tired of reaching out and not getting help. i am really struggling tonight so reached out to calm, they joined the chat and said “Hi there, thank you for reaching out. Unfortunately, as explained before with you CALM have changed and tightened their remit which means that we are not longer able to support you beyond this point. We are strictly suicide specific now for people needing immediate help and do not offer long term support. If you are looking for a chat this evening you can always head on over to samaritans.org or https://giveusashout.org/ . We wish you the very best. Take good care, CALM.” - i don’t know what to do now. i am not using shout as i dont need police coming. there is no other places that offer a webchat / messaging service open right now. i can’t phone as i struggle with communicating how i feel verbally.

    i don’t understand the point in helplines when they refuse help. i was using calm for their purpose, and im still a problem. i really do give up forreal. there’s no point talking to college about it either as im just an issue there too. i hate myself. i hate life.

    i’m safe rn.

    just wanted to say that samaritans do a 1-2-1 chat from 6pm and its not available to everyone but they wont call police or anything unless you give them your details. ( i know from experience). also there’s a webchat helpline that wont share what you say unless you ask them to or give your details that webchat messaging service is called kellys heroes. were here for you if your at risk or in danger pls call 111 or 999 for emergency support as the mix isnt a crisis service <3.

    thank you @eylah 🌟

    i’m not in danger rn, i know the mix isn’t a crisis service i just needed to vent about how frustrated i am that even helplines refuse me support:(

    im really sorry if this comes across cheeky as i really don’t mean for that so i do apologise if it does.

    im sry to hear they refuse you they have no right to do that as your deserving of a listening ear as much as anyone else does. pls remember your so loved & cared abt i know you hardly know me but im here for you if you need to vent etc im sry you are feeling so shitty rn and it wasnt cheeky dw i didnt think you was being cheeky <3.
    keep your face always toward the sunshine and shadows will fall behind you. 🤍

    pfp made by @Chloe234 ❤️
  • Invisible_meInvisible_me Posts: 171 Helping Hand
    Hi. I know and understand how frustrated you are. I hear this and so completely understand and relate tryibg to get help is so hard!! Im just so lucky that I've got my doc as an avenue of support.
    Is there someone yoy trust yiu can use as support. In school I used to practically see my head of yr, learning mentor like 3-4 times a week.

    Helpline wise- have you trird @hopelineuk/ papyrus. Ive found them helpful and quite quick st responding like 30mins to 50mins, even at late random o clock times, that's by email. I know they have pjone email and text i think but not sure re webchat. Quicker than shout which I was waiting 6rd by text!
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