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dyoverdx
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I’m a mature student who is doing A levels and I have struggled with my mental health. My studies where disturbed due to me being sectioned and I was in hospital for 5 years.
I do struggle with loneliness and i texted SHOUT and they recommended this site.
In my free time I like drawing, writing poems, playing chess and working out. I’ve started mix martial arts classes recently and I am really enjoying it.
I do struggle with loneliness and i texted SHOUT and they recommended this site.
In my free time I like drawing, writing poems, playing chess and working out. I’ve started mix martial arts classes recently and I am really enjoying it.
“Most people are so ungrateful to be alive. But not you. Not anymore.”
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It sounds like life has been quite tough on you over the last few years. We're here for you if you'd like to share more. You can always start your own thread to give yourself that space to connect and get some support.
Martial arts sounds fun! I did Judo for a few years when I was younger but wasn't very good
I love martial arts as well in particular taekwondo
I wrote this one because recently I've been going through some difficulties in my life.
TW: mental health recovery / self-harm depictions
It seems like it's gone forever and I hate it,
If only I had the strength and the patience,
But I've past that and it's crazy;
Everyday feels like the same but I'm aging,
My youth is dying - it is being wasted,
And that costs much more than your wages,
Because I'm wasting my life but I want to save it
I really don't when it will be my time,
I meant that in both ways and I cry,
Will I stop it or will I die?
I beg for your help please (for my life)
Please do what you can do and I'll try
And grow my wings and I'll fly,
I'll be safe and go sky high
I accept that I need help, I need it
But (for most people) they won't believe it,
Please give me a chance and you'll see it
I'm this close to accepting defeat
It's like I want to talk but I can't speak
Because I can't just get out and be free
But let's just hope and try to achieve
The best I can, I still dream
I really don't when it will be my time,
I meant that in both ways and I cry,
Will I stop it or will I die?
I beg for your help please (for my life)
Please do what you can do and I'll try
And grow my wings and I'll fly,
I'll be safe and go sky high
It's like I'm in a constant suicycle,
But I have to plan what to do and fight it,
Because I can stop, it's true, no lie,
I can tell you that I don't have to die,
If I stop cutting it will be alright,
I am so glad that I am still alive,
Give me one more chance, I will surivive,
I promise that I'll do my best and try
I really don't when it will be my time,
I meant that in both ways and I cry,
Will I stop it or will I die?
I beg for your help please (for my life)
Please do what you can do and I'll try
And grow my wings and I'll fly,
I'll be safe and go sky high
But am I getting the help I need
Whilst I sit in Tesco and I bleed?
Whatever you choose, I beg you, please,
That it helps me to stop doing these things,
I am asking for help and want you to think,
That whatever you decide it'll slowly shrink,
I write, not with blood, but with ink,
So you I can live my life - my kitchen sink
I would probably be terrified and never return
The poem that you shared is so powerful, @dyoverdx. You write so beautifully and I can really hear how much you went through. It's so positive to see you join the community on the other side of this. Recovery isn't easy and it's amazing to hear you're back studying after this time. That takes a lot of strength and you should be proud of yourself for that.
I've just added a trigger warning and placed your poem within a spoiler just so the community are aware of the content.
I also like to draw and write poems too, and it's really great that you're enjoying your mixed martial arts classes!
I look forward to seeing you around the boards!
Ooh nice I did those subjects at A level
What is your best tip in getting at least a B for each subject?
My back up offer wants three B’s.
My main choice wants an A*AA
Ah nice!. Im glad that your finding your subjects ok at the moment and I think it's good that you have got a good routine so you have enough time to study them properly. I did the complete opposite and only did year 12 and then lockdown happened. I did media, RE and art.
I guess it depends on the exam board - I did OCR for bio and chem which doesn’t have essays but i know AQA does.
Biology I found to be very content heavy so I used quizlet to make flashcards using my textbook. There’s a website called physics and maths tutor which is a good bank of exam questions by topic so you get a feel for what to expect. I did the same with chemistry but found it took a lot less work - i dont know if that was just me.
As for maths just do loads of practice questions, again you can use physics and maths tutor. I’m not sure if you’ll be able to access it but there was a website called integral maths that my school used - it has like videos and worksheets and stuff to build up your skills, that’s good for the more difficult stuff.
I think the most important thing is just to focus on your weakest areas and try to work out WHY you got a question wrong, I guess that’s the way to gain the most from your revision.
Are you like in college or something? So you know what grades you’re working at? Cuz I guess if you’re not being set little assessments every now and again, you could create those yourself from past paper questions, and that will give you an idea of what to focus on.
I’m a private candidate. I had to pay for my exams and practicals. My predicted grade from teacher marked assignments where three As but it’s not accurate. I only did a few and it was a last minute thing to post my predicted grades for uni.