Trigger warning-SH and SI context

Former Member

Hey guys sorry
So recently I’ve gotten really intrusive thoughts about the above trigger
The one thing stopping me from it is worrying what my mum would be like which is weird because she knows about the thoughts and she don’t make too big a thing out them but they are just thoughts and not the actions so idk if that plays a part
I just really don’t want to disappoint her or make her mad but I know I can’t force myself to not do anything for any longer
Sorry thanks for reading sorry if wasted your time sorry thanks sorry

Gemma

Hey @ElleFroggo05, thank you for your trust in sharing this with us. It's really brave of you to reach out. Let us know how you're feeling this morning

I'm hearing how things are feeling quite tough and that you have been having these intrusive thoughts around SH for a while now. When those thoughts have intensified in the past, what have you found has helped you to cope with them and keep yourself safe?

I know you mentioned that worrying what your mum would think has stopped you in the past - would you feel comfy sharing with her how strong the urges are feeling at the minute?

The organisation Mind has a great article with some tips on coping with urges to SH. There are also apps like Calm Harm and distrACT with tips and techniques on coping with SH that you might like to look into.

If you'd like some text based support, Crisis Messenger is open 24/7 everyday. To access this support, you can text THEMIX to 85258.

I remember you mentioning at the start of last month that you had been attending a peer support group which is such a brave step to take. I wondered how that has been going and are you still attending those sessions?

Keep reaching out for support and remember you're not alone

Former Member

Nothing really I kind of just force myself to not do it
Ye I told her then she took a bunch my stuff away for some of it it felt like she took my indentiy away like my badges and stuff. She tried take away my earrings but that was way too far
She also said if I text her how bad it is again she’d take more stuff away
I have calm harm I’ll get distract thanks
I’ll try remember that thank you
Ye I still attend but there’s no more sessions until new year because the venue is shut for the period

Laura_tigger82

Do you feel able to talk to her about how you are feeling and which items you would like back @ElleFroggo05? It sounds really difficult that you feel she took it too far and you feel like your identity has been taken away.

How have you found the distractions - what do you find most helpful in terms of the distractions? We are here with you and, hopefully, you will be able to go to the sessions you find useful again soon once the Christmas period has passed

Former Member

@Gemma see previous sorry I keep forgetting tag
@Laura_tigger82
I’ve told her a little I felt like it was too much. She took away my badges but my mates call me badge girl so it’s hard
Music is really helpful I can’t really find many more distractions especially at 4am
Thanks

Former Member

Hey @ElleFroggo05 it's really brave for you to reach out and explain what's going on! how are you doing today? i read that you find music helpful at night. have you found anything else since then that's also helpful to you? i know it is hard to talk to others about how you're feeling, especially family but we all hope you're okay. let us know how you're doing

Former Member

@nat_ could be better but it’s ok. Just been having worse week mentally and my sleep has been awful.
Ye I found other stuff but music is my main thing

issie

Hey @ElleFroggo05 Just thought I would check in to see how you are doing today? Have you managed to get some better sleep? We are always here if you need to talk

Former Member

@Issie_11 am struggling still especially with my sleep

EmLiz

@ElleFroggo05 sorry to hear you're still struggling to sleep. I hope you manage to have a restful night soon

I just wanted to echo the posts above and say it's really brave of you to reach out on here. I know it can be really hard. How are you feeling today?

We're always here if you want to talk

Former Member

@EmmaLiz am ok my little brother is really exicted for Christmas so I’m just trying be happy for him. He’s 8 but has autism and PDA so it’s took him longer than most kids to understand Christmas and stuff so the fact he is so into it and exicted about it this year makes me really happy

amy02

Hey @ElleFroggo05 Thanks for sharing with us - I'm so glad to hear you are finding joy through your little brother

Former Member

Hey @ElleFroggo05

Just wanted to check in to see how you are doing? We are here for you
Sending hugs

Former Member

@amy02 @*BananaMonkey* thanks I’m ok could be worse

Former Member

ElleFroggo05 wrote: »

@amy02 @*BananaMonkey* thanks I’m ok could be worse

We are here for you if you want to talk about things

Former Member

@“BananaMonkey” thanks just trying keep shit together lol