Sorry for posting this

Amy22

Hi, I hate myself I am a creep and I am unloveable. Why do I have such a weird kink there's something wrong me. I guess it started when I loved watching charlie and the chocolate factory growing up and the blueberry scene excited me. I read fanfiction of people turning into fruits and it's so weird but I feel oddly drawn to it. I think there is something wrong with me I'm turning into a monster. I think I am my own worst enemy. Why do I have fetishes someone help or take me out plz.

Amy22

so sorry this is cringe i apologise if you are reading this

Amy22

Aw thank you so much @Past User I guess I was having one of my moments and actually found some dark fanfiction which spooked me a bit I think

ek4874dm

You’re not a monster. Lots of people have “weird” (more like not socially acceptable) kinks and fetishes. You don’t have to apologise for anything🩵

Amy22

Thank you @ek4874dm it's that I guess I always been into things that most people probably think is weird or different I guess

Amy22

I did it again Im messed up and evil

JJLemon18

@Amy22 I agree with what others said. Most people have their own 'weird' stuff they enjoy, many just dont talk about it, you do which already makes you braver than most! If fact, I believe you agnowledging all of this makes you even less 'weird'. I know there would be a lot of people who feel just like you, and them not talking about it means they have no one to tell them that all of this okay. So you're not messed up or evil at all. Actually you can be 'evil' if you want hehe, that's pretty cool too!

Amy22

@JJLemon18 Thank you so much I guess I never use this weird thing to hurt anyone so thats the main thing, but I dont want to be turning evil thats the thing. I feel like sometimes there's another version of me that wants to do bad things even though I know doing them will only cause issues. I try to be the good person as much as I can. Sorry

JJLemon18

@Amy22 there's no need to apologise. As you said, you're trying your best so that all that matters. You shouldn't be feeling horrible about yourself for things that are absolutely okay and normal

Amy22

Thank you @JJLemon18 I guess cause I identity maybe as feminime a bit its not often associated with us at all like its more of a masculine thing to be into *certain things* so I guess maybe that is why Im feeling strange all because of a stupid fixation with a scene from a film years ago smh

JJLemon18

@Amy22 thats an interesting way to approach it. I personally don't believe it has anything to do with your gender or stuff. You are free to like what you want and I don't care if you're not 'masculine' enough lol. Does that mean if I'm not into *certain things* then I'm not masculine??

Amy22

@JJLemon18 Aw thank you, I guess growing up I saw things a certain way however of course I think that anyone can like what they want to like really but its different with me. I feel a bit better now about it though thanks so much for helping me out

Amy22

I always felt like I held strong traditional beliefs eventhough I do want to break away and be modern but I feel sometimes I can't I think it has something to do with me being too hard on myself and not allowing myself to be free and who I want to be i guess

JJLemon18

Amy22 wrote: »

however of course I think that anyone can like what they want to like really but its different with me.

I feel like a lot of people think this way, me included. When looking at other people you are compassionate and understanding but when looking at yourself you're harsh and judging. Humans are pretty weird sometimes aren't they haha.

Glad you feel better now tho!

Amy22

@JJLemon18 Honestly I think we are because we help others but sometimes not ourselves