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Dissociation (again)
JJLemon18
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Hey, sorry I'm posting a lot again lol. I've been thinking about my dissociation a lot recently as I noticed something. It feels like it's the worst it's ever been, yet its starting to feel normal in a way... its like some of my anxiety has started to dissappear because of how disconnected I feel. Like I don't stress out too much because the "threat" doesn't feel real, if that makes sense. At certain times I believe I start to act and feel like a normal person. And that really makes me wonder: Does everyone dissociate? And they just don't know it?
Like it seems like there's a spectrum (it's gonna be tough to explain, I feel like I have to draw this out lol). There's the middle where most people are, the 'normal' part. There's the 'dissociation' part above that, where you're struggling to wrap your head around the world because of how unreal and blurry it feels. And there's the part below where its almost like 'anti-dissociation', where you're hyper-aware, and that could cause you to overthink and be self-conscious etc.
And little me was very hyper-aware. Now though I'm slowly moving to the 'normal' part of the spectrum, and in reference to how I felt before, this feels extremely disconnecting and uncomfortable to me.
Or I'm completely wrong and I don't get it, and I just sounds like some lunatic lol. I know this idea isn't perfect as I sometimes feel both hyperaware and disconnected at the same time, but idk how to explain it. I'm just trying to make sense out of it all I guess.
Like it seems like there's a spectrum (it's gonna be tough to explain, I feel like I have to draw this out lol). There's the middle where most people are, the 'normal' part. There's the 'dissociation' part above that, where you're struggling to wrap your head around the world because of how unreal and blurry it feels. And there's the part below where its almost like 'anti-dissociation', where you're hyper-aware, and that could cause you to overthink and be self-conscious etc.
And little me was very hyper-aware. Now though I'm slowly moving to the 'normal' part of the spectrum, and in reference to how I felt before, this feels extremely disconnecting and uncomfortable to me.
Or I'm completely wrong and I don't get it, and I just sounds like some lunatic lol. I know this idea isn't perfect as I sometimes feel both hyperaware and disconnected at the same time, but idk how to explain it. I'm just trying to make sense out of it all I guess.
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@Xee who are you to tell me what to do?
It's important to note that while some level of dissociation is common, experiencing severe or chronic dissociation can be indicative of underlying mental health issues, such as dissociative disorders, post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD), or other related conditions. If your dissociation is causing distress or interfering with your daily life, seeking support from a mental health professional is advisable. They can help you navigate your experiences, provide coping strategies, and determine whether any treatment or interventions are needed.
Remember, you're not a lunatic for trying to understand your experiences. Exploring and seeking answers about your feelings and thoughts is a healthy way to work towards personal growth and well-being.
I am noticing a lot of people feel this way too so I'm starting to have doubts. I finally spoke with my mum about this and tried explaining my dissociation to her. Her response was "what are you on about? That's normal. Everything you explained I feel that way every day" to which I was pretty much speechless. I told her that this is something I've never had before, I always felt normal, or at least better, but she was persistent saying theres nothing wrong with me.
Btw if I write down everything I want to tell them then I'd have to end writing a whole book haha. Welp I better start now...