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Dissociation (again)

JJLemon18JJLemon18 Community Champion Posts: 1,876 Extreme Poster
Hey, sorry I'm posting a lot again lol. I've been thinking about my dissociation a lot recently as I noticed something. It feels like it's the worst it's ever been, yet its starting to feel normal in a way... its like some of my anxiety has started to dissappear because of how disconnected I feel. Like I don't stress out too much because the "threat" doesn't feel real, if that makes sense. At certain times I believe I start to act and feel like a normal person. And that really makes me wonder: Does everyone dissociate? And they just don't know it?

Like it seems like there's a spectrum (it's gonna be tough to explain, I feel like I have to draw this out lol). There's the middle where most people are, the 'normal' part. There's the 'dissociation' part above that, where you're struggling to wrap your head around the world because of how unreal and blurry it feels. And there's the part below where its almost like 'anti-dissociation', where you're hyper-aware, and that could cause you to overthink and be self-conscious etc.
And little me was very hyper-aware. Now though I'm slowly moving to the 'normal' part of the spectrum, and in reference to how I felt before, this feels extremely disconnecting and uncomfortable to me.

Or I'm completely wrong and I don't get it, and I just sounds like some lunatic lol. I know this idea isn't perfect as I sometimes feel both hyperaware and disconnected at the same time, but idk how to explain it. I'm just trying to make sense out of it all I guess.
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  • yanayana Community Champion Posts: 1,266 Wise Owl
    DON'T YOU DARE APOLOGISE FOR POSTING A LOT
    my brain is not braining the way brains are meant to brain
  • JJLemon18JJLemon18 Community Champion Posts: 1,876 Extreme Poster
    Xee wrote: »
    DON'T YOU DARE APOLOGISE FOR POSTING A LOT

    @Xee who are you to tell me what to do? :p
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    yana
  • ebyrne556ebyrne556 Moderator Posts: 744 Part of The Mix Family
    Hey @JJLemon18 Just checking in on you this morning? <3 I know this post was from a few days ago.
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  • Terry8936Terry8936 Posts: 271 The Mix Regular
    Dissociation is a complex phenomenon that can manifest differently in various individuals. Your observations and thoughts about it are valid and show your willingness to explore your own experiences.

    It's important to note that while some level of dissociation is common, experiencing severe or chronic dissociation can be indicative of underlying mental health issues, such as dissociative disorders, post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD), or other related conditions. If your dissociation is causing distress or interfering with your daily life, seeking support from a mental health professional is advisable. They can help you navigate your experiences, provide coping strategies, and determine whether any treatment or interventions are needed.

    Remember, you're not a lunatic for trying to understand your experiences. Exploring and seeking answers about your feelings and thoughts is a healthy way to work towards personal growth and well-being.
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  • JJLemon18JJLemon18 Community Champion Posts: 1,876 Extreme Poster
    @Terry8936 I finally got my date for my initial assessment with some health care professionals so I'm hoping to discuss this with them.

    I am noticing a lot of people feel this way too so I'm starting to have doubts. I finally spoke with my mum about this and tried explaining my dissociation to her. Her response was "what are you on about? That's normal. Everything you explained I feel that way every day" to which I was pretty much speechless. I told her that this is something I've never had before, I always felt normal, or at least better, but she was persistent saying theres nothing wrong with me.
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  • Laura_tigger82Laura_tigger82 Moderator Posts: 5,066 Part of The Furniture
    Just because other people experience it too @JJLemon18 does not mean you are not allowed to struggle with this. How are you feeling about finally getting the date for your initial assessment - how far away is this initial assessment? Please do feel free to let us know how this goes and if there's anything at all we can do to help :)
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  • JJLemon18JJLemon18 Community Champion Posts: 1,876 Extreme Poster
    @Laura_tigger82 Hey, thank you. It's on the 20th of September. I'm very worried about talking and not being able to tell them everything or word it in a way that makes sense. But I'm also a little hopeful, it's something to look forward to I guess. And yes, I will keep you all updated :)
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  • ebyrne556ebyrne556 Moderator Posts: 744 Part of The Mix Family
    Heya @JJLemon18 can understand how you might be feeling worried about not being able to make sense or not talking everything you need to tell them .Mabye you could write down dome prompts or what u want to say and bring them with you We will all be thinking about you on September 20th and sending hugs and positive vibes, you got this <3
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  • JJLemon18JJLemon18 Community Champion Posts: 1,876 Extreme Poster
    @ebyrne556 Thank you! I appreciate it so much :3

    Btw if I write down everything I want to tell them then I'd have to end writing a whole book haha. Welp I better start now...
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    ebyrne556
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