y dont

ellie2000

y cant i forget stuff n b happy, i was happy at 1 point. does ptsd prevent tht. i hav to find tht right person to tlk to. will i b happy without triggers? wen i move

ellie2000

ppl r saying 'u've had lods of therapy, BE Happy!' but it was tht abusive therapist tht did it, is tht legal?

ellie2000

i cant cry, scream or stuff bc scared to not b taken seriously which ppl didnt

ellie2000

i ranted at the ones i pay for support, saying 'PHONE OR ZOOM ITS BEEN AGES'

Former Member

abuse is never legal, no matter who does it. it's awful that it happened from a therapist though, from someone in a position of trust who has unprecedented access to their clients' most intimate thoughts and feelings. sending hugs, you're not alone

i have PTSD and depression, treating it and living a life that's as fulfilling as can be is hit or miss, but when it's hit, i am happy sometimes!! it is possible, and i really hope happiness stops eluding you soon!

one origin of the word happiness comes from the Norse word hap, which means "by chance". and it's true, happiness happens (the haps in both these words are not a coincidence) by chance - it's ironic and counterintuitive the more we try to push away negative emotions, the less happy we are.

ellie2000

Latley i've been thinking of tht 'therapist', nd i been telling acouple ppl related, how much she made me unhappy. is tht ok? bc wen she left she left me with mixed emotions and i had ago at the ppl tht raped me, she got me rifled up frustrated, upset, anger. the everytime police were helpful some visits but told me to stop. they even told me they'd put me away

ellie2000

i forgot wat happy feels like

Former Member

That sounds really tough Ellie. How are you feeling now? 💜