feeling today

ellie2000

i feel gd, i missed mr,c zoom but thts ok. i dont having fantasies about hurting the ppl tht r__ed me coz its the anniverser of the bad day, so thts gd,
i've decided pubs r not gd either, why on earth would u drink liquid tht makes u uneasy n wierd? theres olod of d_ckh__ds too

ellie2000

wats tht building tht u can go two nights at a time

Stellaluna

@ellie2000 I am so sorry this happened to you. It is understandable you may feel hurt and want to get back at the people who harmed you. Are you managing to look after yourself and do some self-care? Do you have anything that could help to take your mind off these memories? It could be an idea to do something you like and be kind to yourself on this day. It is ok if you do not feel comfortable drinking or going to pubs.

ellie2000

wat is 'self care' i recently came accross tht term
i got pc games gog nd steam, but wen my flashback flicker like a film, i cant do anything

Dandelion

I personally interpret self care as something I do to make myself feel better. So I like to run or watch TV or read when im having a bad day. Playing games can definitely be self care as well. Is there anything else that makes you feel better when you have flashbacks?

ellie2000

i hav a cat whiich only c on the weekend, cats r better than humans

ellie2000

is there a organisation tht lets u stay 2 nights at a time around uk

AislingDM

Glad to hear that despite this being such an incredibly difficult and challenging day for you, you're working so hard to feel okay What do you think had got you feeling good at the moment?

In terms of the organisation question, what type of organisation do you mean? (e.g., motels, hotels, homeless charities?) xx

ellie2000

I had a zoom frm Mr c checking I didn't go haywire last nite
I was wondering if there was a place/organision nationwide where ppl can stay acouple nights a week if they r have a bad time with feelings, with qualified ppl?

ellie2000

Seeing tht I have notifications on themix make me happy 😊 bc of support and no judgement

ellie2000

im glad i didnt get panicky last nite, i go crazy every yr since this one

ellie2000

was/is it effect my life, will i feel different in a different setting? i told mr.c i wanted to die, days are bs, since 2010

Brookee

Hey @ellie2000
Just wanted to check in and see how you're feeling at the moment?

ellie2000

i have questions circling in my head

Lucy307

Do you want to talk to us about any of those questions, Ellie? 💜

ellie2000

wen ppl move do they take their troubles with them?
is it btr too talk to a proffessional rather someone off the street?
y do i feel comfortable away frm my home
if ppl say 'this was so long ago' are they addmitting it?
do i offend ppl by getting help, is help for all life now?