state of now

ellie2000

is everything gd?, y do i seek reassurence?

Former Member

Hey @ellie2000
I just wanted to check in and see how you're feeling after this post?

ellie2000

good, wen im with family at weekend but during the week i fall into depths of sadness coz i dont no who to talk to or do coz im on my own ppl think im happy

Laura_tigger82

It is really positive that you feel good when you are with your family at weekend @ellie2000.

It sounds difficult that you are struggling more during the week, especially with the depths of sadness. Would you like to tell us more about what the depth of sadness looks like for you?

You can talk to us, Samaritans and Childline and do what makes you feel happy. What might this look like for you?

ellie2000

i get called the c word then i ran off home and i usually run home n self harm, i havent in a while coz its been lockdown. but last i got called the c word for doin something positive. i ran home and playd on my phone, the game 'war of mine' which wen u buy it, the money goes to ukraine to help.
i got called the c word even wen it wasnt lockdown, i thought he was done with the namecalling, tht phonecall i had forgot his ways. and hoped to finish the phonecall on a happy note.
all i stay living 4 is holidays. wen i go frm holiday into where i live i feel upbeat 4 a while and then i feel rubbish, y?

Former Member

ellie2000 wrote: »

i get called the c word then i ran off home and i usually run home n self harm, i havent in a while coz its been lockdown. but last i got called the c word for doin something positive. i ran home and playd on my phone, the game 'war of mine' which wen u buy it, the money goes to ukraine to help.
i got called the c word even wen it wasnt lockdown, i thought he was done with the namecalling, tht phonecall i had forgot his ways. and hoped to finish the phonecall on a happy note.
all i stay living 4 is holidays. wen i go frm holiday into where i live i feel upbeat 4 a while and then i feel rubbish, y?

No one should call you that, have you reported to the police about this as this is verbal abuse.
Like Laura said, Childline and Samaratains are here for you!

Big hugs!♡

ellie2000

why do i need someone on the date of wen something bad happened every yr?

Former Member

ellie2000 wrote: »

why do i need someone on the date of wen something bad happened every yr?

I didnt say that?

ellie2000

no, thanks 4 ur input. i was thinking about a truamatic event tht i suffered which lead to having negative behavior against ppl. i feel like i go to c 'my passion' coz i saw them 2011. the sexual assault hpnd 2010, y do feelings come up out of the blue?

im just thinking, i go oo-er every yr on the same date