what saved me

ellie2000

i still think its 2010 n 2013, i'm thinking on writing on the 'my passion' page that they saved my life coz i went to every gig wen they were in london, i first saw them at astoria with 'kill hannah' and 'gun dogs'. is tht gd idea

Former Member

Hey @ellie2000

Just wanted to check in to see how you are doing? 

It sounds like a good idea to write about what has helped you, if you want to do that

We care about you and we are here if you want to talk

ellie2000

trauma still goes on even to this day, y? and how do i live happy days, i havnt hurt myself since october

Past User

I’m really sorry to hear about how hard everything is right now. I’m sorry I don’t have any advice.

But that’s amazing Ellie, well done you should be proud of yourself. What do you think has helped you between now and October?

 I’m always happy to listen if you ever need anything 

(Sorry if this came across patronising)

ellie2000

i went to scotland, since i came back i havnt heard the voice tht seys ' go on ellie, get the broom u'll like it' it was uncomfortable

i'm still worried to meet ppl after lockdown, i self harmed bcoz ppl used harsh words, which flared up my ptsd, the words they use stick coz they say it in an abrupt manor and then im not seen till the next week

Former Member

Heyyy @ellie2000

Where abouts in Scotland did you go? I've only been to a couple of places but it's so lovely up there   

That's completely understandable that you're nervous about seeing people, they are unknown variables that we can't control. Instead of meeting a lot of people, have you thought about doing it in small steps and just meeting one person who you feel really safe with first?

I understand that it's not easy to talk about self harming so hopefully you know how brave and strong you are for writing about it. You can always find support and safety on the Mix

ellie2000

i went to lochcarron, the b&b was a mess, there were no youth group this yr as covid. and the cafe run out of sundae ingredience. but it was a nice break, frm the usual world .