HELPP😭😭

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errrin said:

Hey Shaunie , it’s good to take a break sometimes, it can help us clear our heads. But remember we’re always here if you ever need anything. 

I agree with @errrin here.

It sounds like a sensible and considerate move to take a break if you're not in the right headspace to use the community, @Shaunie. If you do need some support while you're away though, remember those all-important crisis services are always there to lend you an ear.

We'll be here whenever you feel you're in the right frame of mind to come back. You're doing really well, and as @Past User and @independent_ said, you deserve to be alive and you would leave a big hole in this community if you weren't here. We would notice, and we would care. You matter a great deal and try to show yourself some kindness at the moment - as you would for others.   

Siena

Thanks guys

im still so suicidal. I feel like I’m on constant edge of overdosing or going out to do something else and die :’(
I won’t overdose tho as that’s not reliable and more of a cry for help way

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Former Member

Hey @Shaunie I'm really sorry to hear that ☹️ If you wanna talk I'm here 👍🏻💪🏻

Siena

Thank guys. 

I’m drunk. Just threw up and my throat burnsssssssss soooo bad. . Fml. I feel so unwell

Siena

Ugh why do I get so drunk

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Former Member

How are you feeling today @Shaunie?

Former Member

Dropping by to send you some love @Shaunie hope you are feeling ok today.

Siena

Thanks guys. 

I’m thinking of going to private counselling with the counsellor I used to see at rape crisis. I have emailed her. She replied back but she doesn’t know it’s me. She doesn’t do face to face until new year. And I asked if she would do every two weeks as can’t afford every week

Former Member

Hey @Shaunie it’s a big step to have reached out to her already - well done. Are you going to talk to her over the phone before face to face or would you prefer to wait and see her in the new year?  

What did you like about her in particular? 😊

Siena

Thank you. 

But I had a phone call with her this morning. She just kept saying about the travel and what about other people I could see for free. Well no service wants to know how I feel. Just throw coping skills at me. 

She said she needs to speak to get supervisor. 

But she told me she 100% never thought I had bad breath. I asked her would you be honest if I did.  said yeah. I don’t think I can take her word for it tbh

Past User

Hey Shaunie I’m really sorry you didn’t get the response you wanted. You really deserve help and support I’m just sorry it’s been so hard  for you to find. I’m always happy to listen if you ever need anything 

Siena

Said to counsellor that I’m actually in therapy and lied when said I wasn’t in any. Said sorry for wasting your time. I’ve given you £25 by using your email for PayPal.  

She said she doesn’t use PayPal. I said oh shit i don’t know where my money has gone to then lol. 

Past User

Shaunie I’m sorry to hear that. I know it didn’t go the way you wanted it to but you could always try again with another councillor when you’re ready.

And I’m sorry about your money, could you maybe contact PayPal. Sorry I’m not good with money.

(Sorry if this came across patronising or rude)

Always here if you ever need anything Shaunie