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*BananaMonkey**BananaMonkey* Lyrical PosterPosts: 5,374 Part of The Furniture
Hi 

The title says it all. Not sure what to say. I’m so anxious. Texted shout but they are busy so I’m waiting. Just feel so alone. Negative thoughts going through my head. 

Thanks for taking the time to read this.

:heart: 
" And everywhere I am, there you'll be, your love made me make it through, oh I owe so much to you "
" So I say thank you for the music, the songs I'm singing, thanks for all the joy they're bringing, who can live without it, I ask in all honestly what would life be? Without a song or a dance, what are we? So I say thank you for the music, for giving it to me "
'' It's a beautiful day and I can't stop myself from smiling "
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  • LaineLaine Animal crossing Mama On a break 💕Posts: 2,478 Boards Champion
    Sending all the virtual hugs! 💙

    Hopefully the wait isn't too long for shout I understand it can get busy sometimes is there anything you can do in the mean time? 

    As you're feeling anxious have you tried grounding techniques yet? 
    Deep breathes  and the senses? :)

    You're never alone here and if you need to talk about anything I'm here to listen no matter how big or small 

    🌈Positive thoughts🌈

    "What's gonna be left of the world if you're not in it?" ~ Bastille

    "Here's to the ones that we got
    Cheers to the wish you were here, but you're not" ~ Maroon 5
  • *BananaMonkey**BananaMonkey* Lyrical Poster Posts: 5,374 Part of The Furniture
    Thank you @Laine

    I’m just so tired.. both physically and mentally. I need to sleep I just can’t. I want to self harm. 

    I took my meds and they have made me feel tired but I also feel really restless.

    i struggle with the breathing stuff cause I’ve got asthma so breathing in general can sometimes be difficult.

    i just need a hug :( 


    " And everywhere I am, there you'll be, your love made me make it through, oh I owe so much to you "
    " So I say thank you for the music, the songs I'm singing, thanks for all the joy they're bringing, who can live without it, I ask in all honestly what would life be? Without a song or a dance, what are we? So I say thank you for the music, for giving it to me "
    '' It's a beautiful day and I can't stop myself from smiling "
    LaineerrrinAnch0r33
  • LaineLaine Animal crossing Mama On a break 💕Posts: 2,478 Boards Champion
    All the virtual hugs 💙

    Ah yeah I remember you saying you were recently diagnosed with asthma are your inhalers working? It's quite stuffy at night it doesn't help!

    Do you have any methods that work for you when you feel the urge to harm? A rubber band or some ice cubes maybe? 

    Maybe Something that helps you relax like a nice hot drink or calming sounds on YouTube? :) 


    🌈Positive thoughts🌈

    "What's gonna be left of the world if you're not in it?" ~ Bastille

    "Here's to the ones that we got
    Cheers to the wish you were here, but you're not" ~ Maroon 5
    *BananaMonkey*
  • *BananaMonkey**BananaMonkey* Lyrical Poster Posts: 5,374 Part of The Furniture
    The steroid inhaler helps a bit which is good. 

    Yeah I think I’m going to put some relaxing music on and hope I fall asleep. I’ve just really had enough since about Friday last week I’ve been in the worst headspace and I just want to get on a train and never come back. I won’t ever do that. But just feel so lost and not myself at all 
    " And everywhere I am, there you'll be, your love made me make it through, oh I owe so much to you "
    " So I say thank you for the music, the songs I'm singing, thanks for all the joy they're bringing, who can live without it, I ask in all honestly what would life be? Without a song or a dance, what are we? So I say thank you for the music, for giving it to me "
    '' It's a beautiful day and I can't stop myself from smiling "
    Laine
  • JordanJordan Posts: 251 Super Moderator
    Sorry to hear you aren't feeling your self *BananaMonkey*. I hope the music helped you get to sleep! I hope Shout was able to get back to you :)

    Do you think there is anything in particular triggering how you are feeling?


  • *BananaMonkey**BananaMonkey* Lyrical Poster Posts: 5,374 Part of The Furniture
    @Jordan

    Thanks for your reply... I’ve not been on my meds for about a week. Just stopped them. I’m back on them now but they take time to get back into my system. 

    Shout didn’t get back to me. 

    I just want to feel okay 
    " And everywhere I am, there you'll be, your love made me make it through, oh I owe so much to you "
    " So I say thank you for the music, the songs I'm singing, thanks for all the joy they're bringing, who can live without it, I ask in all honestly what would life be? Without a song or a dance, what are we? So I say thank you for the music, for giving it to me "
    '' It's a beautiful day and I can't stop myself from smiling "
  • *BananaMonkey**BananaMonkey* Lyrical Poster Posts: 5,374 Part of The Furniture
    I hate evenings :( 
    " And everywhere I am, there you'll be, your love made me make it through, oh I owe so much to you "
    " So I say thank you for the music, the songs I'm singing, thanks for all the joy they're bringing, who can live without it, I ask in all honestly what would life be? Without a song or a dance, what are we? So I say thank you for the music, for giving it to me "
    '' It's a beautiful day and I can't stop myself from smiling "
  • LiamLiam mint Posts: 1,660 Extreme Poster
    sending big hugs <3
  • *BananaMonkey**BananaMonkey* Lyrical Poster Posts: 5,374 Part of The Furniture
    edited August 30
    thank you @Liam means a lot :heart: 
    " And everywhere I am, there you'll be, your love made me make it through, oh I owe so much to you "
    " So I say thank you for the music, the songs I'm singing, thanks for all the joy they're bringing, who can live without it, I ask in all honestly what would life be? Without a song or a dance, what are we? So I say thank you for the music, for giving it to me "
    '' It's a beautiful day and I can't stop myself from smiling "
  • Emoji246Emoji246 Posts: 456 Listening Ear
    I’m awake what’s up 🥺
  • GreenTeaGreenTea ☕🌻☕ MidlandsPosts: 9,339 Supreme Poster
    Hope you are doing ok 💕💕

    The scars you can't see are the hardest to heal.     

    Astrid Alauda

    Emoji246
  • *BananaMonkey**BananaMonkey* Lyrical Poster Posts: 5,374 Part of The Furniture
    Im really not doing too good and I’m not sure what’s wrong. I didn’t take my meds for a week but I’m now back on them. But I’m feeling no better 
    " And everywhere I am, there you'll be, your love made me make it through, oh I owe so much to you "
    " So I say thank you for the music, the songs I'm singing, thanks for all the joy they're bringing, who can live without it, I ask in all honestly what would life be? Without a song or a dance, what are we? So I say thank you for the music, for giving it to me "
    '' It's a beautiful day and I can't stop myself from smiling "
  • Emoji246Emoji246 Posts: 456 Listening Ear
    I hope you feel better soon 🥺❤️
  • RileyRiley Posts: 619 Super Moderator
    Hey @*BananaMonkey* I'm sorry to hear that you've been struggling so much lately, it really sounds like you've had a lot on your plate lately so it's understandable that you're feeling so stressed out and anxious.

    I'd like to echo what others have said and send you lots of hugs, we all want to support you here on the boards. <3 I don't know what kind of medication you're taking but it's possible that it just takes a while to get through your system, hopefully you'll start feeling better before too long!

    Be sure to keep us all updated on how you're doing since I know we're all rooting for you. :)
  • *BananaMonkey**BananaMonkey* Lyrical Poster Posts: 5,374 Part of The Furniture
    I can’t do this anymore :’( 
    " And everywhere I am, there you'll be, your love made me make it through, oh I owe so much to you "
    " So I say thank you for the music, the songs I'm singing, thanks for all the joy they're bringing, who can live without it, I ask in all honestly what would life be? Without a song or a dance, what are we? So I say thank you for the music, for giving it to me "
    '' It's a beautiful day and I can't stop myself from smiling "
    independent_
  • *BananaMonkey**BananaMonkey* Lyrical Poster Posts: 5,374 Part of The Furniture
    I dislike chronic pain so much :( 
    " And everywhere I am, there you'll be, your love made me make it through, oh I owe so much to you "
    " So I say thank you for the music, the songs I'm singing, thanks for all the joy they're bringing, who can live without it, I ask in all honestly what would life be? Without a song or a dance, what are we? So I say thank you for the music, for giving it to me "
    '' It's a beautiful day and I can't stop myself from smiling "
    Ariannaindependent_
  • Salix_alba_2019Salix_alba_2019 Posts: 1,081 Wise Owl
    Sending massive hugs ❤️
  • GreenTeaGreenTea ☕🌻☕ MidlandsPosts: 9,339 Supreme Poster
    I dislike chronic pain so much :( 

    Sending hugs, I hope it eases so you can get some rest. You know where I am if you need me x

    The scars you can't see are the hardest to heal.     

    Astrid Alauda

  • *BananaMonkey**BananaMonkey* Lyrical Poster Posts: 5,374 Part of The Furniture
    Thank you :heart:

    I've been given more painkillers to take alongside the ones I am already on. Fed up of feeling this way, 5 years is too long :( 
    " And everywhere I am, there you'll be, your love made me make it through, oh I owe so much to you "
    " So I say thank you for the music, the songs I'm singing, thanks for all the joy they're bringing, who can live without it, I ask in all honestly what would life be? Without a song or a dance, what are we? So I say thank you for the music, for giving it to me "
    '' It's a beautiful day and I can't stop myself from smiling "
    independent_
  • Emoji246Emoji246 Posts: 456 Listening Ear
    I'm awake <3
  • *BananaMonkey**BananaMonkey* Lyrical Poster Posts: 5,374 Part of The Furniture
    Really struggling :( 
    " And everywhere I am, there you'll be, your love made me make it through, oh I owe so much to you "
    " So I say thank you for the music, the songs I'm singing, thanks for all the joy they're bringing, who can live without it, I ask in all honestly what would life be? Without a song or a dance, what are we? So I say thank you for the music, for giving it to me "
    '' It's a beautiful day and I can't stop myself from smiling "
    independent_
  • independent_independent_ Resident Coffee Addict ScotlandPosts: 5,355 Part of The Furniture
    @*BananaMonkey* aww no I’m really sorry to hear you’re struggling tonight :( sending big hugs. Stay strong. 

    What’s on your mind tonight? We’re here
    “Sometimes the people around you won’t understand your journey. They don’t need to, it’s not for them.”
  • *BananaMonkey**BananaMonkey* Lyrical Poster Posts: 5,374 Part of The Furniture
    Thank you @independent_ :heart:

    im just in a lot of pain and I have forgotten what it feels like to not be in pain. Chronic pain is horrible, nerve pain is horrible, I feel so restless

    I can’t take anymore pain meds tonight cause I’ve had all the doses I can take. 

    I just wish the pain would go. It won’t tho. 6 years nearly of this now and I’ve just had enough 
    " And everywhere I am, there you'll be, your love made me make it through, oh I owe so much to you "
    " So I say thank you for the music, the songs I'm singing, thanks for all the joy they're bringing, who can live without it, I ask in all honestly what would life be? Without a song or a dance, what are we? So I say thank you for the music, for giving it to me "
    '' It's a beautiful day and I can't stop myself from smiling "
  • independent_independent_ Resident Coffee Addict ScotlandPosts: 5,355 Part of The Furniture
    Aww @*BananaMonkey* I can imagine it really is horrible to be in that much pain all the time and not to remember what it’s like to not be in so much pain. That’s really tough. 

    Do you have anything that you do as a sort of distraction? Something that makes you feel calmer and more relaxed?
    “Sometimes the people around you won’t understand your journey. They don’t need to, it’s not for them.”
  • *BananaMonkey**BananaMonkey* Lyrical Poster Posts: 5,374 Part of The Furniture
    I’m really hoping my meds kick in so I can sleep. I was at work 3-10 so I’m really fired but just feel restless cause of the pain. 

    @independent_ thank you lots for talking to me. 
    " And everywhere I am, there you'll be, your love made me make it through, oh I owe so much to you "
    " So I say thank you for the music, the songs I'm singing, thanks for all the joy they're bringing, who can live without it, I ask in all honestly what would life be? Without a song or a dance, what are we? So I say thank you for the music, for giving it to me "
    '' It's a beautiful day and I can't stop myself from smiling "
  • Emoji246Emoji246 Posts: 456 Listening Ear
    I’m awake❤️🥺
  • independent_independent_ Resident Coffee Addict ScotlandPosts: 5,355 Part of The Furniture
    It’s not a problem at all <3 hope you can get some sleep soon @*BananaMonkey*, have you got work tomorrow? 
    “Sometimes the people around you won’t understand your journey. They don’t need to, it’s not for them.”
  • *BananaMonkey**BananaMonkey* Lyrical Poster Posts: 5,374 Part of The Furniture
    Thank you @independent_
    I got about 3 hours sleep. I’m in work at 3 
    " And everywhere I am, there you'll be, your love made me make it through, oh I owe so much to you "
    " So I say thank you for the music, the songs I'm singing, thanks for all the joy they're bringing, who can live without it, I ask in all honestly what would life be? Without a song or a dance, what are we? So I say thank you for the music, for giving it to me "
    '' It's a beautiful day and I can't stop myself from smiling "
  • independent_independent_ Resident Coffee Addict ScotlandPosts: 5,355 Part of The Furniture
    Aww no that’s rubbish @*BananaMonkey*, hope you sleep better tonight. There’s nothing worse than a really bad nights sleep when you’re already feeling at your worst. 

    How are you feeling today? I hope work isn’t too bad.
    “Sometimes the people around you won’t understand your journey. They don’t need to, it’s not for them.”
  • ShaunieShaunie I’m alive but I’m dead England 🏠Posts: 11,354 An Original Mixlorian
    I’m sorry to hear you’re in a lot of pain @bananamonkey <3
    hope you get some rest soon

     
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