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ellie2000

wat does music do to ur sanity, how do u lift urself, does ptsd haunt u 4eva, y do ppl infect pain on others.
 I were thinking txting someone to do revenge to someone who tortured me 4 yrs haha, y am I alive, why do I live with poor mental health without ending

ellie2000

I was having flashbacks where I was told to go nude all holiday, no-one else on tht holiday did

Former Member

Heyy @ellie2000
Sounds like yesterday was a rough day, and that you were really questioning things on a wider level beyond just an individual's mental health experience. 
Is there anyone you are talking to about these memories from the past? 
Sending caring thoughts your way, we care about you

ellie2000

Nope, send hugs plz
 If therapy stops is tht it. She leaves me to struggle

Millie2787

Hey Ellie 

it’s sounds like your worried about how you’re going to cope if and when your therapy ends , does that sounds about right ? 

It may be worth looking into some other services around your area that you may be able to get support from if your therapy ends or maybe even visiting your GP 

How you feeling today ?

ellie2000

i want all the ones who don't tlk to u how u feeling to perish, I say tht I need help and they end convos with 1 sentence and it makes me cry, n I accidently found some magic juice n drunk all of it with coke and turned up with smelly breath, with only afew sessions to go she mite cut therapy short. FTW

Former Member

Hey @ellie2000 It sounds like you are reaching out to people saying you need help, however they are responding with support is that correct? 

It can be difficult when therapy stops, and it sounds like you have some worries around this. Have you spoke to your therapist about your thoughts around stopping? 

ellie2000

My therapist is the only one that takes it in , I'm not declining help. My sessions with her r nearly over. When I feel in bad termoil I drink whiskey which I'm tryna say something. I'm 15 now, have noone to talk to. Pressure from 'friends' make me drunk

ellie2000

I used go out with real friendly people n hav a gd time

ellie2000

Like bowling and the cinema n quasar

Former Member

Hi @ellie2000

I can hear that your sessions are nearly over now. How are you feeling about this? It might be a good idea to speak to your therapist about any worries you might have about the sessions coming to an end, so that they can make sure you are being supported in the best way for you

It seems like you are unhappy with your 'friends' who pressure you into being drunk and that's understandable. But I can see from a post you made earlier today that you are seeking help for alcohol use which is great to hear. I am wondering if you have spoken to your therapist at all about these 'friends'? It's important to surround yourself with people who make you feel good, and if they aren't doing that then you deserve to have some support in moving away from this situation. It sounds like you had some really fun times with other friends before. Those are the sorts of friendships that matter Take good care x

ellie2000

i don't go out, I go out less now. many ppl I meet start off gd than take advantage. there are afew gd ppl who I saw but don't c anymore

Former Member

Hey Ellie,

You mention not seeing good people anymore, do you want to talk more about that?

We're here for you

ellie2000

ppl's voices of a'holes 'nasty ones' in my head interfere with everyday life how do I deal with it!!!!