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The 'I need a hug' thread - please read first post before posting :)

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  • Millie2787Millie2787 Carer/Craft Lover Posts: 2,339 Mega Poster
    edited April 18
    So scared about so many things and don’t know who to turn to :( i feel so Lonely, no one likes me 
    “ I believe that you have the power to achieve whatever you put your mind too, You are living a life’s most people won’t  ever understand but that’s what will Be the root of all your determination and success. You have a soul full of love and kindness and I just know that despite all the hardship, a life’s of happiness awaits you and I’m very proud of you, just keep holding on” 
    Kathleen07Shaunie
  • Kathleen07Kathleen07 Posts: 1,762 Postholic
    I seriously just can't cope anymore. Life is too impossible and hard. I really want it to stop and I want to kill myself.
    ShaunieKasa2103
  • Kathleen07Kathleen07 Posts: 1,762 Postholic
    Idek what's wrong. But I really can't take it. I just want to knock myself unconscious.

    I took a quiz once and it said my death would be suicide. And tbh, I sort of agree. If things don't improve, I feel the chances of a suicide attempt are pretty high. I'm safe right now - but I don't like saying that because it makes me feel even worse (I wish I wasn't "safe").

    Can somebody tell me why I feel like this, and how the fuck to stop it??

    ^^maybe tw


    ShaunieKasa2103
  • ShaunieShaunie England 🏠Posts: 6,712 The Mix Elder
    I seriously just can't cope anymore. Life is too impossible and hard. I really want it to stop and I want to kill myself.
    Hope you can keep your self safe? <3
    “If we could look into each other’s hearts and understand the unique challenges each of us faces, I think we would treat each other much more gently, with more love, patience, tolerance, and care” Marvin J. Ashton
  • Kathleen07Kathleen07 Posts: 1,762 Postholic
    edited April 18
    Shaunie said:
    I seriously just can't cope anymore. Life is too impossible and hard. I really want it to stop and I want to kill myself.
    Hope you can keep your self safe? <3
    Sorry. Yeah, I hate to say it, but I guess. Thanks for caring <3
    Shaunie
  • Kathleen07Kathleen07 Posts: 1,762 Postholic
    I want to cry and scream and go hysterical. But when I try, nothing comes out. I feel this discomfort all the time as if people in my thoughts can see me. It's really hard to describe but there's just this feeling that prevents me from breaking.

    I'm so distressed and I need all this pain to end.
    Kasa2103Millie2787LaineShaunieBubblesGoesBoo
  • Kathleen07Kathleen07 Posts: 1,762 Postholic
    I'm sooooo sorry. I'm having yet another outburst. I'll regret it in the morning. But I don't know how the hell to describe how I feel. I honestly just keep nearly saying "goodbye", or "I'm sorry, I just want to die now", 'cause nothing else seems to express this... this... WHATEVER THE FUCK THIS IS.

    Ugh I better get off now. I'm sorry for spamming this lovely place. I'm laughing at how ridiculous I'm probably sounding but take my word for it, this is horrible.
    Kasa2103LaineShaunie
  • Kathleen07Kathleen07 Posts: 1,762 Postholic
    Wow. I'm just too much for everyone here I think. I'm beyond this site. Too bad for this site, not in enough danger for crisis messenger.

    I will shut it now.
    Kasa2103Millie2787LaineShaunie
  • Kathleen07Kathleen07 Posts: 1,762 Postholic
    I can't die but I really can't live. 

    All I've done today is panic and cry and think thoroughly about suicide. I feel so hopeless and powerless and distressed. And I couldn't see Ruby cause I was too upset but now I'm crying even more. 

    I can't take this anymore and there's just no point. Maybe just let me go. 

    (safe. Cause I don't want to hurt others. But that's the only thing keeping me here rn) 
    ShaunieMillie2787Kasa2103Laine
  • ShaunieShaunie England 🏠Posts: 6,712 The Mix Elder
    edited April 20
    Fml. I forgot about "back to work" thing. Because they have taken ages to do it so i completly forgot that happens after you take a day off lol. So i got called to the HR thinking oh shit what have i done wrong. Lol. But yeah was just back to work thing. 

    I just said i was off for my mental health and he said will it happen again.... i just said "hope not" lol. But then i had to write it down too and omg my hands was shaking from anxiety and i couldnt write properly and was most awkward thing ever. Writing Was a completel mess and Omgg. It felt like forever i was writing my signature. 
     How embarrassinggggg
    “If we could look into each other’s hearts and understand the unique challenges each of us faces, I think we would treat each other much more gently, with more love, patience, tolerance, and care” Marvin J. Ashton
    Kathleen07AidanLaine
  • AidanAidan 165 million cups of tea are drunk everyday in Britain Posts: 1,270 Fanatical Poster
    Hope you're doing okay everyone, you're all strong
    Hugs <3
    Kathleen07Laine
  • Millie2787Millie2787 Carer/Craft Lover Posts: 2,339 Mega Poster
    😔 Things have just got a whole lot worse and I don’t have the engery  for all of this 
    “ I believe that you have the power to achieve whatever you put your mind too, You are living a life’s most people won’t  ever understand but that’s what will Be the root of all your determination and success. You have a soul full of love and kindness and I just know that despite all the hardship, a life’s of happiness awaits you and I’m very proud of you, just keep holding on” 
    Kathleen07ShaunieLaine
  • Kasa2103Kasa2103 Ugly Snake South EastPosts: 2,236 Mega Poster
    I keep on getting flashbacks after a traumatic event that happened 3 months ago. If I say what happened confidentiality will be broken which is the last thing I need.
    I have endured pain and loss. I have felt broken. I have known hardship, and I have felt lost and alone.

    But here I stand, trying to move forward, one day at a time. I will remember the lessons in my life because they are making me who I am. Stronger.

    A warrior. 
    Kathleen07Laine
  • Kathleen07Kathleen07 Posts: 1,762 Postholic
    edited April 20
    Sorry for all the moaning and requests for hugs lol...

    It feels like nothing is even meant for me. And that I'll never feel better. Idk I'm just struggling so much and everything's so hopeless.

    I'm ready to just sob until I'm severely dehydrated lol. I feel like just giving up and going to sleep.
    Millie2787Laine
  • Kathleen07Kathleen07 Posts: 1,762 Postholic
    Omg even the neighbourhood is going to get worried about me lol. 'Cause I'm not really going outside. In part because I feel really depressed and all that, and in part because I have no clothes for the warm weather... Lol. Which is a result of being so hopeless and depressed lol so it's hard to do anything about it.

    I'm soooo tired tonight. But I've been getting a bit scared of sleep. Nothing severe and idk why, but the idea of being unconscious has felt scary. I'm not myself. Okay, well, I probably am myself, sadly. I really hope that I have got depression or something, 'cause everything feels real and like it truly is hopeless. It's one of the things preventing me from seeing a doctor - what if my feelings are true, and my mind doesn't need fixing, and there's nothing that can be done?...:( If that makes any sense.
    Millie2787Laine
  • Millie2787Millie2787 Carer/Craft Lover Posts: 2,339 Mega Poster
    So overwhelmed with everything and I really don’t know what to do 
    “ I believe that you have the power to achieve whatever you put your mind too, You are living a life’s most people won’t  ever understand but that’s what will Be the root of all your determination and success. You have a soul full of love and kindness and I just know that despite all the hardship, a life’s of happiness awaits you and I’m very proud of you, just keep holding on” 
    Kathleen07Laine
  • Kathleen07Kathleen07 Posts: 1,762 Postholic
    edited April 21
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    Laine
  • Millie2787Millie2787 Carer/Craft Lover Posts: 2,339 Mega Poster
    Had such a horrible night , only feel asleep at 4 and ended up not feeling great 
    “ I believe that you have the power to achieve whatever you put your mind too, You are living a life’s most people won’t  ever understand but that’s what will Be the root of all your determination and success. You have a soul full of love and kindness and I just know that despite all the hardship, a life’s of happiness awaits you and I’m very proud of you, just keep holding on” 
    LaineKathleen07
  • Kathleen07Kathleen07 Posts: 1,762 Postholic
    I'm so scared and sad and hopeless. I really don't know how to cope. I'm barely hanging on - feels like it's off this very thin thread that never breaks. I'm so fucking distressed.

    Put me to sleep. I just want to escape. I don't think there's any life waiting for me and I can't take how I feel. It's like a brain-dead person hooked up to machinery to keep their heart going - there's no hope and it would be kinder to just let them go:( I'm so tired.

    (safe)
    AifeShaunieMillie2787
  • Kasa2103Kasa2103 Ugly Snake South EastPosts: 2,236 Mega Poster
    edited April 21
     I am thin but I feel really fat. I regularly skip meals. I look really ugly and I hate my body because I am tall, slim but have sort of fat legs. I feel scared of eating more than I do already because I don't want to see the numbers on the scales go up.  That would mean I have gained weight which is scary because I'll be fat and be uglier than I already am. I have measured my weight and bmi today. I think my bmi is underweight but is still not low enough. I want to lose weight but I don't know if it is a need or a want.

    Don't read if you get triggered about bmi or eating. 

    [edited by moderator]

    I have endured pain and loss. I have felt broken. I have known hardship, and I have felt lost and alone.

    But here I stand, trying to move forward, one day at a time. I will remember the lessons in my life because they are making me who I am. Stronger.

    A warrior. 
    Kathleen07Millie2787
  • ShaunieShaunie England 🏠Posts: 6,712 The Mix Elder
    I keep forgetting everything and doing my head in now. 
    I know its normal to sometimes go into a room and forget why. But is it normal to do it about 3 times everyday. Swear feel like im getting early dementia. Im trying to remember what i was going to do but i don’t know 
    “If we could look into each other’s hearts and understand the unique challenges each of us faces, I think we would treat each other much more gently, with more love, patience, tolerance, and care” Marvin J. Ashton
    Kathleen07Millie2787
  • Kathleen07Kathleen07 Posts: 1,762 Postholic
    edited April 21
    Idk if I've ever been in such a bad place. I mean I guess I've felt this bad before many times. But it's only really now that I've been feeling so desperate, maybe. I don't know.

    My grandmother invited me out with her tomorrow. And I had to decline. Due to the lack of clothes for warm weather and feeling ugly which is due to my horrible mental torment. And I also think I may just be too tired. My life is seriously in a state and I feel like there's nothing I can do lol.

    Suicidal:((
    Millie2787
  • Kathleen07Kathleen07 Posts: 1,762 Postholic
    Well the good news is, the pain is going to stop soon. Because things will get better, or I'll kill myself. It can't stay like this forever 'cause I won't survive.
    Millie2787
  • Kathleen07Kathleen07 Posts: 1,762 Postholic
    Ugh. I had a tinsy bit more hope and calm this morning. But now the tears have come back and the hopelessness is even stronger again.

    Idek I just... can't live with this much longer.
    Millie2787
  • Kathleen07Kathleen07 Posts: 1,762 Postholic
    edited April 22
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  • ShaunieShaunie England 🏠Posts: 6,712 The Mix Elder
    Feel bad
    “If we could look into each other’s hearts and understand the unique challenges each of us faces, I think we would treat each other much more gently, with more love, patience, tolerance, and care” Marvin J. Ashton
    Kathleen07Millie2787
  • Millie2787Millie2787 Carer/Craft Lover Posts: 2,339 Mega Poster
    😔 3 years since Nana went today and I miss her like mad. So overwhelmed with no one to talk to so if anyone wants to make the day skip over me please do 
    “ I believe that you have the power to achieve whatever you put your mind too, You are living a life’s most people won’t  ever understand but that’s what will Be the root of all your determination and success. You have a soul full of love and kindness and I just know that despite all the hardship, a life’s of happiness awaits you and I’m very proud of you, just keep holding on” 
    Kathleen07Aife
  • ShaunieShaunie England 🏠Posts: 6,712 The Mix Elder
    I miss being under services and my care co ordinator & miss the mix counselling already aswell as young womans trust and all ended and feel lonely. Rape crusis was suppose to ring me but didnt i emailed them but nothing. Well probably good job atm cause will be busy to even have conselling atm but am scared they dont want to give me any support 
    “If we could look into each other’s hearts and understand the unique challenges each of us faces, I think we would treat each other much more gently, with more love, patience, tolerance, and care” Marvin J. Ashton
    Kathleen07Aife
  • Kathleen07Kathleen07 Posts: 1,762 Postholic
    Shaunie said:
    I miss being under services and my care co ordinator & miss the mix counselling already aswell as young womans trust and all ended and feel lonely. Rape crusis was suppose to ring me but didnt i emailed them but nothing. Well probably good job atm cause will be busy to even have conselling atm but am scared they dont want to give me any support 
    Hugs <3

    And I can't imagine anyone not wanting to give you support 'cause you're awesome.
    Shaunie
  • ShaunieShaunie England 🏠Posts: 6,712 The Mix Elder
    edited April 23
    I think ive just realised what triggers me. And i feel so awful now😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭
    “If we could look into each other’s hearts and understand the unique challenges each of us faces, I think we would treat each other much more gently, with more love, patience, tolerance, and care” Marvin J. Ashton
    Kathleen07
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