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Hi
I am not sure if any one would remember me here(I haven't been able to come on for almost a month!)but I am really struggling and would highly appreciate for someone to talk to and just offload onto,if that is okay?I am not seeking attention or support,more care really and just to know that I might not be completely alone with everything(the many)things that I have been through/am going through.
I have a lot on my mind,as usual and am feeling very alone and isolated,as well as loads of others!I feel like I have nobody at all to turn to or to talk to.I am with CAMHS but do not do any therapy or in depth work with them(I am 17,almost 18 so wil have to move onto adult services,if i decide to).
I am confused about my sexuality.I now work full time(kind of).I keep getting flashbacks of different things.I am almost an adult.i have loads of coursework to be doing.I keep arguing with people,everywhere,online and offline.I have very low self esteem and lack in confidence a lot.I feel disgustingly fat and ugly.I feel like a big baby.I suffer with severe depression,social anxiety,general anxiety disorder and PTSD(all diagnosed by a professional-CAMHS and GP),as well as possible bipolar.
I am not sure if any one would remember me here(I haven't been able to come on for almost a month!)but I am really struggling and would highly appreciate for someone to talk to and just offload onto,if that is okay?I am not seeking attention or support,more care really and just to know that I might not be completely alone with everything(the many)things that I have been through/am going through.
I have a lot on my mind,as usual and am feeling very alone and isolated,as well as loads of others!I feel like I have nobody at all to turn to or to talk to.I am with CAMHS but do not do any therapy or in depth work with them(I am 17,almost 18 so wil have to move onto adult services,if i decide to).
I am confused about my sexuality.I now work full time(kind of).I keep getting flashbacks of different things.I am almost an adult.i have loads of coursework to be doing.I keep arguing with people,everywhere,online and offline.I have very low self esteem and lack in confidence a lot.I feel disgustingly fat and ugly.I feel like a big baby.I suffer with severe depression,social anxiety,general anxiety disorder and PTSD(all diagnosed by a professional-CAMHS and GP),as well as possible bipolar.
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Welcome back
There's a lot of stuff going on for you right now, I wondered if it might be useful to post some more specific threads? For example, you say you're confused about your sexuality, maybe you could post a thread about that in Sex & Relationships. I know it can feel overwhelming when there's too many things flying around, sometimes it can help to deal with things in more manageable pieces.
Keep talking, we're here
Thank you for replying.I didnt think anyone would if im completely honest.I think it dod and it didnt helpme to write this post.It did because I kind of let it out in a way but then it didn't because I saw it all written(typed)down rather than just knowing.This isnt even all of what I have on my mind and what I am strugglin with at the moment;there is much much more!
If I wrote a seperate thread for each then I feel it wouldnt help me and my name would end up appearing a lot on all of the boards which I k o2 nobody wants.
I had a camhs session today and sooke about adult services....:s
I'm sorry things are so tough right now *hug*
It really takes an awful lot of strength to carry on when you're feeling quite down, you're clearly a strong person :yes: You don't have to do this alone though, there is professional help out there if you want it and it sounds to me like you do?
You mentioned Camhs and that you can't quite go into depth with them as you'll soon be moving to adult services if you choose to. I was just wondering what you're thoughts on that are? Do you think you will choose to work with adult services? Have you mentioned everything that's going on right now to your Camhs worker?
Another option might be to make an appointment with your GP? That might be really helpful if you feel willing to
We care and we'll certainly listen whenever you want to talk. Really well done for posting *hug*
Camhs are kind of clueless at the moment but in a way that is down to me and is my fault.I think i may be willin to go onto adult services but it will be a very big step and come with its own anxieties.just turning 18 is a big scare and worry for me,let alone without adult services.
Thank you for wanting to help me,I appreciate it.Cant thank you enough.xx
This is also something that many people experience! Trust me, it's absolutely understandable that you feel this way and it's okay in that you're allowed to.
Do you feel able to make them a bit more aware? I understand you may be scared to, if that's the case, but having them know might actually help you to feel less alone? You won't know until you try.
It's really positive that you're even considering adult services at this point! What scares you about turning 18?
I am not scared as such to talk to camhs,I just find it extremely difficult to.They often make me feel alone too though.
Can you say a bit more about this? Do you know what it is about being an adult that scares you? People develop and mature at different rates, it sounds like maybe it could be to do with what you think might be expected of you when you turn 18? That you're worried about still feeling like a child? See if you can tell us a bit more.
You say talking to camhs is difficult - is it finding the words in the moment? Or maybe you don't feel you have a strong relationship with your camhs worker? Writing things down before you're due to have a session with someone can sometimes help. Is that something you might be willing to try?
Our article on feeling lonely would be worth reading too: http://www.thesite.org/sex-and-relationships/friendship/im-lonely-4526.html
One thing it suggests is to try or start something new?
What sorts of things do you like doing in your free time?
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Thankyou Caitlin.I am here for you too hun.xx
Thank you for your reply.I cant tell you how appreciative I am for all the replies on here currently.
I think almst everything scares me about being an adult-money,relationships(sexuality at the moment though),being able to do things i cant atm etc.I am always being treated and looked down on as a child although i do now work.My confidence and self esteem is too low,even for a teen.I dont look,act,dress,or even talk like anybody of my age,that I know.I am scared that will still be the same when I turn 18.
I have tried hundreds of times to write things down but it just doesnt work for me anymore,and hasnt done for a while now.I think i find it harder to talk knowing that it will all somehow get back to my parents even with me not wanting it to.
I dont really enjoy doing much anymore.TS,CL,Mindfull,work and college.Thats it.
Had a mixed day today.Head is spinning
I know your replied to this thread a few days ago now, but I just wanted to reply to see how you are doing?
It's normal to be scared about growing up. I have felt like that lots of times in the past, and I am 25 now. It's the fear of the unknown but there is support, and also growing up is a new thing, and with everything new it may be scary but it's okay to talk about what you are worried about.
Sorry to hear how much you are struggling at the minute. *hug*
Keep chatting on here, we are here for you
" So I say thank you for the music, the songs I'm singing, thanks for all the joy they're bringing, who can live without it, I ask in all honestly what would life be? Without a song or a dance, what are we? So I say thank you for the music, for giving it to me "
'' It's a beautiful day and I can't stop myself from smiling "
A lot of things still happening at the moment,inside and outside my mind,and I feel alone.Very alone.xx
Just thought I'd drop in to check how you're getting on? I also wanted to highlight a bit of what Jo7 posted. Have you thought at all about starting something new? Anything you've ever been curious about or any club you've ever wanted to start but never got that far yet? I see you mentioned that you don't really enjoy anything any more, but can I ask what you did used to enjoy?
Hope you're okay *hug*
Not so good at all.Keep breaking down too
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That sounds interesting
" So I say thank you for the music, the songs I'm singing, thanks for all the joy they're bringing, who can live without it, I ask in all honestly what would life be? Without a song or a dance, what are we? So I say thank you for the music, for giving it to me "
'' It's a beautiful day and I can't stop myself from smiling "
" So I say thank you for the music, the songs I'm singing, thanks for all the joy they're bringing, who can live without it, I ask in all honestly what would life be? Without a song or a dance, what are we? So I say thank you for the music, for giving it to me "
'' It's a beautiful day and I can't stop myself from smiling "
I am frustrated.I am qll bottled up,I am in a dark place and slipping all the way back down again
What's happened?