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Stomach Pain
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Hello 
TRIGGER WARNING: Mentions suicide, OD
Okay, so Friday last week I done silly things, walked out of hospital and was taken back by the police, and the police had sat with me until I was discharged. I refused all treatments, so nothing would have reversed the effect of this OD.
Even if I still dream of dying, and want to die. And no-one is listening to me when I tell them ''I want to die, and if you gave me a shed lode of pills I'd take them'' they just change the topic. Same as when I go ''I want to go inpatient'' there reply is like ''there's no beds, and it would make you worst and that's what we fear'' can I even get worst? I mean, what could be worst then being at home, planning suicide?
I do nothing good for anyone and I'm just a worthless human being.
Over the days, it feels like someone is stabbing my liver, and I'm more tired, feel really nauseous, huge headache, drinking more, and I can't seem to get my temperature right. I'm either too hot or too cold.
I don't even know what to do about it, to get checked out, or to leave it. Can't go doctors because she's fed up with me and even told me she can't help. Hospital is if it's major or life threatening. Like I just want to do it again, least the pain will be numb.
I just don't know
TRIGGER WARNING: Mentions suicide, OD
Okay, so Friday last week I done silly things, walked out of hospital and was taken back by the police, and the police had sat with me until I was discharged. I refused all treatments, so nothing would have reversed the effect of this OD.
Even if I still dream of dying, and want to die. And no-one is listening to me when I tell them ''I want to die, and if you gave me a shed lode of pills I'd take them'' they just change the topic. Same as when I go ''I want to go inpatient'' there reply is like ''there's no beds, and it would make you worst and that's what we fear'' can I even get worst? I mean, what could be worst then being at home, planning suicide?
I do nothing good for anyone and I'm just a worthless human being.
Over the days, it feels like someone is stabbing my liver, and I'm more tired, feel really nauseous, huge headache, drinking more, and I can't seem to get my temperature right. I'm either too hot or too cold.
I don't even know what to do about it, to get checked out, or to leave it. Can't go doctors because she's fed up with me and even told me she can't help. Hospital is if it's major or life threatening. Like I just want to do it again, least the pain will be numb.
I just don't know
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she said she unfortunately couldn't help you regarding an inpatient stay? is that right? She can still check you out physically.
I already knew that slightly. I got told in May I had damaged my Liver. But I got treatment for that which reversed most of the damage...
She can't help with anything tbh. I've seen her too much and it's just getting more and more difficult to talk to her..
Doctors is closed tomorrow anyway, so no luck there.
I took more before the one on Friday.
Was only looking for some support but I guess I can cope with the obvious.
Support takes a lot of different forms, people are trying to be supportive by giving practical suggestions.
I'm not sure what else to suggest, honestly. How would you feel about seeing a different GP?
I'll see what I can do. I'll probably end up sleeping everything out in all honesty.
I've given up thinking people actually give a shit.
Doubt it's long term.
they kept asking about the bruises on stomach and back but they don't need to know how they got there...
they said it could be 1 of 3 things, gall baller, kidney, or liver... but they advised me to go to GP when I can/when I next see her to get some more tests...
You're not pointless Sophie and I'm glad to hear there's been an intervention. How do you feel about going to the GP?
I think Fiend, it's worth just listening to the bigger picture when responding - the point you make about the very real damage that's happening is valid and worth highlighting - and shows you care. At the same time it's worth acknowledging the struggle here - and engaging with the fact that Sophie isn't feeling listened to. Continuing to zoom into that one element without listening to the bigger picture perpetuates that feeling for her. Hope that makes sense.