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Decided not to bring up my old thread so here's a new one.
-Uni is so hard already, so much pressure.
-My dad is starting chemo today.
-My main ex is now single which is a bit of a mindfuck.
-I have a meeting with my new CPN next week.
-I have such a squeaky bed in my new house. I'm not getting much sleep.
-This sounds lame, but it could actually affect my studying. I have loads of skin peeling off my fingers. If it gets any worse I'll need plasters which means I won't be able to wash my hands effectively = problem.
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-Uni is so hard already, so much pressure.
-My dad is starting chemo today.
-My main ex is now single which is a bit of a mindfuck.
-I have a meeting with my new CPN next week.
-I have such a squeaky bed in my new house. I'm not getting much sleep.
-This sounds lame, but it could actually affect my studying. I have loads of skin peeling off my fingers. If it gets any worse I'll need plasters which means I won't be able to wash my hands effectively = problem.
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And bed mostly fixed now, cheers Fiend.
This really sucks. Did they give a reason/ try to rearrange?
How was your weekend? Are you feeling any better?
Let us know how it's going
Went into uni from 8-10, and now I'm back in bed being all like :crying:. Layaaaaame
I'm getting 0 support.
All of this is repetition, so there's no point saying anything to anyone. This keeps happening and it's gets harder.
Sorry to hear it's still bad. *hug*
Any word from your CPN?
How is everything else: Has uni got a bit better? It's understandable to feel under pressure, especially at the beginning. Are you starting to get used to it a bit?
How's your dad doing?
Just because it's the same things on your mind doesn't mean they're not worth talking to people about. There's clearly a lot going on, so if you want to talk about them, we're all here
Nothing from CPN. Tried calling reception yesterday but they kept disconnecting my call.
Uni is same old. Finding it hard to keep on top of things.
Dad is losing his hair and taste, but otherwise ok I think.
Sorry to hear you are going through a tough time *hug*
What did you do with your day that made it a nice day until you went home?
Is there any way you can access emergency medical services that can provide you your meds?
By the way I noticed you have a quote at the bottom of your thread from the Levellers, do you like their music?
keep us posted of how you are
purple_rain
I don't have much to say, just really wanted to offer you hugs *hug* - Being supportless is very difficult and can also feel very lonely, but I'm glad you're reaching out to support on here. Can you talk to your GP over the phone, rather than having to see him in person? It can be difficult to see someone again after walking out one of there sessions, what made you want to walk out last time you saw your GP?
I'm surprised the office hadn't called you back instead of disconnecting it, that doesn't sound at all very supportive, you deserve to be offered better support. Do you have people you can call or helplines when you feel you're at risk, or instead of self harming look at distractions, it can be difficult to talk to people when we feel rather low, but it's about finding a coping strategy instead of self harming.
Best wishes,
Angel
*hug*
I know we've talked about it before, but if you wanted to see a GP you can see a different one in the surgery, or register elsewhere.
*hug*
How are you doing today? Hope you're feeling a bit better.
I wonder about this - it may be in your notes that you ended the last appt abruptly but if you see a new GP, you might find that they are interested to find out why you walked out and why you're feeling frustrated - they might be more keen to listen to you?
Unfortunately you wont know until you try and there's no guarantee with GPs but you deserve to get the support you need, try not to forget that. If you want to talk about your meds then this is valid and important, as is you feeling that you want to be at uni even though you are struggling at the minute.
You mentioned as well that even after a good day you can still end up harming when you get home - do you have any ideas about what triggers that dip in mood? What does it feel like and do you think there's anything you could try to help you hold on to the positivity? Maybe writing about your day when you get in or something?
I'm not feeling much better tonight. I'm quite agitated
I could go and see a new GP, and I know it could be OK, but at the moment I feel too scared of it going badly and being out of options in terms of support.
After something good happens I feel like I return to the reality of things being crap, and just that difference in wheyyyy things are OK to wahhh I'm back to feeling like this AGAIN, good things never last / hardly ever happen make me feel shit.
I can't explain.
Stuff hurts me, and I don't want to hurt, or be hurt. I want to live, but I want that to be with my bad emotions dulled down and a whole lot less pain. The more the pain continues, the longer I see no improvement, the more I feel it's not worth continuing.