Miss Riot's soul-exploring junk...

Former Member

Be warned, some of this will be alcohol indused, some will be stream of consciousness stuff, and others just general junk...

anyway....

May I introduce the first poem of this collection, entitled FFF (Freedom From Fear)

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I can’t fear this anymore…
This unobtainable swell
The one that holds me in it grip
The one I can’t control
Let me whisper in your ear
The secrets my heart can’t bear
To hold in silence, without being shared
Without witness they cannot grow

This takes shape
In the corner of my eye
Where I cannot see
Only one voice speaks clearly
And that is you
My heart keeps screaming out
For something a little less shallow
Not hollow
Maybe you…

I see an image standing there
I know I don’t have to understand
I just feel that you’re there
Nothing can be taken from me anymore
Because it all lives here
With my heart….

You can beat me
You strip me
Demand me to surrender
You can haunt me
And control me
Try to instill fear
You can shake me
You can take me
But I’ll still be standing there
And I’ll be free…

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Former Member

A New one, entitled Heavy Water

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I put my toe in?
Thought I was lucky, to have it all my way?just this once
I let my guard down I, chose to ignore my intuition, I, held on tight
Nails torn out, fingers left ravaged
I got, swept away?
Pulled under by the intensity, I couldn?t match the pace
Pushed down by the waves, caught up in the current
Arms a flailing, voice a? wailing
Coughing and choking
Lungs filling up with dark, dark water
I?m?
Loosing my breath, loosing my breath, loosing my breath, loosing my breath

But for one second it all seemed clear
Just for a moment it all fell into place
Crystal clarity
I have what I truly desire
I could see it there in a world without sacrifice
I want it so bad, I deserve it so hard
I reached out?

Waves come crashing in, batter me up, bruise me down
They throw me around, and around,
Sharp edges and rocks, each creates new marks with new laments to tell
Songs whistling, singing, screaming through my head
This perpetual state of flux is wearing me down
Like a pebble in the river
Flattening me round
If the river dries then so do I, but I can?t keep going on
I?ll just become a grain of sand, unmissed from the picture.

Concrete wall, stone cold steel,
Bars and gate and wounds that don?t heal
Twisted muscles and cracking bones
I want to curl up here all alone
At the storm drain, where theres a break in the flow
And shut you out because it hurts
The possibilities of good
The balance doesn?t weigh up
The failure is ever-present
Raw and true

But from the dark depths of the deep
The sharp stab of light
Echos all around me
Sets the ravens a?flying from the trees
I struggle to the surface against the current and the tide
Over and over again, like the tides and ebbs and flows unrelenting
Never surrender, never admit defeat
Never allow life to win over the will to live.
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Former Member

I just needed to get this out, I doubt it makes any sense.
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Dearest Hope, give me hope
There are so many unknown dangers here in this world
Dearest dreams and ambitions, please hide yourself away
You will only be shot down like crow from the sky
I can?t live, I cannot be myself
trapped in a world where fear rules all
Without means to express just how I feel
I will only be made wrong and called a fool
There are no truths left
I?ve told myself everything is a lie
Apathy come take me in
Be my best of friends so I feel nothing more
Burn out my eyes so I don?t see the blinding truth
That shatters my soul with its light
Empathy run far away and never look back
The soldiers of peace have all been turned
Through torture or fear
We?re all conscripts in this army of hate

I can feel my heart sinking into the ground
Trampled over pushed down, consumed by the cold winter earth
I am so hollow
I guess I?m just like everyone else now
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