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So distracted
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Whenever I have a 'bad week' I end up being so distracted I can hardly work and it's driving me mad.
I am in constant pain (my own fault), and I can't turn off the cursed internal monologue that is so busy telling me I'm not good enough that I end up not being good enough because it's too loud. It's too loud I can't read with all that noise.
I just can't think so I can't work. Sometimes with a deadline looming that's enough to focus but not always and not today. I've already failed to produce one essay this term because of a bad week I can't afford this to happen twice and my exams are looming.
F* it. I'm going for a shower, I'm going to Mass and I'm going to enjoy Formal Hall. Rant over. I just hate this it reinforces how worthless I feel. All I have is my degree, if I fail that I have nothing.
I am in constant pain (my own fault), and I can't turn off the cursed internal monologue that is so busy telling me I'm not good enough that I end up not being good enough because it's too loud. It's too loud I can't read with all that noise.
I just can't think so I can't work. Sometimes with a deadline looming that's enough to focus but not always and not today. I've already failed to produce one essay this term because of a bad week I can't afford this to happen twice and my exams are looming.
F* it. I'm going for a shower, I'm going to Mass and I'm going to enjoy Formal Hall. Rant over. I just hate this it reinforces how worthless I feel. All I have is my degree, if I fail that I have nothing.
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And I speak for a lot of people when I say I'm so grateful for all the advice you've given me *hug*
:yes:
Can't quite manage a day at a time so I'm working in 5-minute blocks at the moment.
:banghead: I actually hate leaving things 'til the last minute and yet I can't break the cycle that makes it this way
i think that's perfectly fine and that's what i do a lot of the time. one little step at at time. and before you know it all those 5 minutes have built into an hour, and all those hours have become a day.
i really have the same problems with my uni work, i find it so hard to concentrate and do what i'm supposed to be doing when there's so much going on in my head. i think the fact that you are doing your work at all is really amazing. so many people in our position would not even attempt to study and i think we would do well to remember that.
so many people here admire you and respect you for being such a good friend and support. i hope one day you'll be able to start to recognise that. until then we'll keep reminding you how amazing you are until it starts to get annoying.
Not that I think my mentor knowing will make any difference there's just a chance I might feel better for saying something.
Be wary of falling into a rut. If what you're doing isn't working, keeping on doing it is very unlikely to magically result in it suddenly working. Definitions of madness and all that.
This could be the time to try and get a handle back on things at the simple level. Get some A3 paper, get some colours, and go and sit somewhere with a bit of space. Get the priciples down on the middle of a bit of paper, then spider diagram it up how things fit in around that. That should help you untangle the treacle of thinking you're losing the plot with your course.
I realise it won't help the bad stuff, but getting a handle on the basics can only help the background mud.
Back to basics when it's not working. You know this really. Title gets written out fresh on a new piece of paper, key points for you to address get taken from it, references, bits to include get taken from there. Structure then comes from jotting 1, 2, 3, all over the paper. It's that school thing that you rarely need, but every so often, is pretty reliable to get you out of a hole,
I've been trying all week and usually it clicks eventually. I guess it's just bad luck this time.