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i'm 30 and i selfharm :(
hi there people.I'm 30yrs old(although look younger) and i started self harming about a month ago.It makes me feel powerful when i do it,and after ive done it i feel better.What triggers it off?..................my "partner" being a complete+utter knobhead,he accuses me of all sorts,sleeping with other people,saying i never cared about caitlyn,that it was my fault she died,makes me feel really,really bad about myself,says some really nasty hurtful things to me about all sorts of things,plus i'm so not over the death of my daughter,she was 3mths old when she died neary 3+half yrs ago.The thing is though,i googled selfharm and alot of the places i looked at said its mainly young people that do it,so now i feel stupid as i'm 30,i have kids,yet i only started self harming like a month ago.All i do is cut up my arms real bad,my partner hid the razors as i find them the sharpest thing to use(plus all the knives/scissors in my place are too blunt anyway) but i bought some when i was out and i hid them from him.When i first cut myself i thought it'd be a one off,but past few days ive done it everyday,even did a little earlier,i feel like such a bad person for doing it,especially at my age,but its like its my only release from all the pain,hurt and anger i'm feeling.I just want to talk to others who are going through the same thing.