don't know if i want to cry or cut

Former Member

Arrg.. :banghead:

i hate myself right now... (but not to the extent of wanting to end my life)
im just being so weak.. and so many people are trying to help me, and i just keep letting them down..
so i try not to s/h but then everything gets worse n worse :crying:

also feel like most the people i normally talk to are all getting on with their lives, since they think im getting help and moving on from my problems.
everyone in my life is slowly disappearing and i feel like ive been left surrounded by insensitive idiots..

None of the coping methods are working for me and im getting even more stressed out by this, and by the fact that i dont know what my emotions are doing right now.

Former Member

elooo you :-)

plzzzzzz dont cut i know how u feel big time
i relapsed today and BIGGEST regret plz dont u'll regret it
and then u'll really hate yourself!!
write down pro and cons of cutting plz bbe dont cut xxx

Former Member

i dont that i have the energy to, to be honest.
dont know that you could call it a relapse, as i only stopped for about 4 days, and now ive cut almost everynight for the past 5 days, and the urges are much worse than ever before

Former Member

Awwwwwwwwwwwwh bbe it is bloody hard but ur doing sooo well,
im proud of u hunie!!
is there anyone u cud talk to i mean right now saying u feel down and have urges?
mayb cud meet a friend? iits extremely hard to keep busy - stick hollyoaks on xx

Former Member

thats part of the problem.. i feel like all my friends are drifting away
maybe its my fault.. im cutting most of them out if they dont know my problems.. only 3 of them do, and only 1 of them know in detail.
the one friend who does know everything has her own problems aswell

i dont feel i have anyone i can talk to right now, which is part of the reason i decided to post on here.

Former Member

Awww hummm maybe i think u shud talk to the friend who knows everything im sure she or he wud like to support u ! x

Former Member

i doubt it..
i tried to talk a little earlier,
but at the moment everything is about her

it doesnt matter that my whole life is falling apart... all that matters is that shes falling in love and her parents dont like him

despite everything she doesnt seem to get that going on about parents is just rubbing it in for me

Former Member

Awww hunie that sucks!!!!
hate it when u need ur mates the most and there never around,
which is why me and my best m8 are no longer friends xx

Former Member

i been there a few times.. actually the first time was what started my s/h

i should be used to it i guess, but no one has ever known this stuff before.

Former Member

hugs no how u feel xx