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i have been suffering what my friends call 'delusions' the past few weeks. i suppose it would seem ludicris to them but to me it makes perfect sense, the fact that they tell me its not real and could never possibly be real just makes me think they know its true and just want to confuse me. its getting bad now, im very hostile when people say its not true and try and come up with rational reasons behind my thinking but they say its not true. also when i was younger i used to hear voices occassionally and they seem to be rearing their heads again, im not quite clear on what their saying to me yet, but last time it resulted in me 'zoning out' and coming to outside my neighbours front door with a hammer, quite freaked me out. my friends also say its not normal to think that people can hear my thoughts but again this could be my paranoia, i dont believe them. i've always been paranoid and know people are laughing at me and talking about me behind my back. it all sounds ridiculus but my frined insists i seek help, if to just clear my chest.im also having trouble expressing myself outloud and emotionally, i've always been a cryer but it jus seems that i cant anymore, im just in a zoned out mood. i have to say my main concern is the 'delision' as it is making me very angry and it is frustrating me, i dont want to hurt anyone and i dont want anyone to hurt me. please tell me if im overreacting or overanalysing this situation, its just difficult to tell whats real and whats not. im scared about going to my GP incase he just laughs at me.:no: