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Please.. i need your help. Anyone, please.
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Hi... my name is Leah.
I don't really know how to start.. i never thought about doing something as public as this, but... this is going too far.
Me and my father used to have a perfect Father Daughter relationship. We'd laugh together, embarass each other infront of our friends, go for walks with the dog together.. and i was happy.
..but not anymore.
I have just turned 13 and I am having problems. When I was twelve, I went into a state of depression. I'd just cry and cut myself. That's all I'd do. Occasionally i'd listen to music but that never did me much good - Just made me cry more.
The last time I cut myself was about a month ago, until now. My father just came home from work early, saying he'd had a row with his boss. I automatically knew this meant trouble as there has been quite a few redundancies in his workplace recently. He explained everything to me and the outcome of this arguement isn't looking good. I went into the kitchen to do something, and ended up comfort eating a pear. When i was done, i used the knife i'd cut the pear with and ran it across my arm a few times, nothing too deep.
Now one of the cuts is burning and it feels good even though I know it shouldnt. I feel the urge to cut myself more and more. I feel like i just want to bleed and pass out and die alone in my room.
Someone please tell me what to do, i'm at a despair :crying:
I don't really know how to start.. i never thought about doing something as public as this, but... this is going too far.
Me and my father used to have a perfect Father Daughter relationship. We'd laugh together, embarass each other infront of our friends, go for walks with the dog together.. and i was happy.
..but not anymore.
I have just turned 13 and I am having problems. When I was twelve, I went into a state of depression. I'd just cry and cut myself. That's all I'd do. Occasionally i'd listen to music but that never did me much good - Just made me cry more.
The last time I cut myself was about a month ago, until now. My father just came home from work early, saying he'd had a row with his boss. I automatically knew this meant trouble as there has been quite a few redundancies in his workplace recently. He explained everything to me and the outcome of this arguement isn't looking good. I went into the kitchen to do something, and ended up comfort eating a pear. When i was done, i used the knife i'd cut the pear with and ran it across my arm a few times, nothing too deep.
Now one of the cuts is burning and it feels good even though I know it shouldnt. I feel the urge to cut myself more and more. I feel like i just want to bleed and pass out and die alone in my room.
Someone please tell me what to do, i'm at a despair :crying:
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Is there anything else worrying you - school, for example?
Thing is, I haven't been diagnosed with depression.. but with some people, you just know, know what I mean? So i'm not getting any treatment. My mother thinks im happy and so does my father. I'm afraid to approach them and just say 'Hey, look, can we please go to the doctor and get me tested for depression?' because they'll just laugh at me and say 'There's no need, you're fine!'
Depression is, apparently, genetic. My mother had very severe depression in her teens so I have a theory about that... but there is nothing else bothering me. This is not the first time my dad has made me cry. Two nights ago i ended my streak of crying every night (the streak went on for 9 nights) but it started up again last night and I have no idea why. I just began to cry.
Is there something wrong with me?
Speak to a GP, pet, or go see a counsillor. Or both. Sounds to me like you could us it
Besides, can't you make a doctor's appointment on your own, if you don't want your parents involved?
Don't you have school at the moment? Why not arrange an appointment for during your lunch hour, or for after school.
How old is your brother? You're too young to be looking after anyone!
Why not talk to you dad about it? Tell him you'd like to go and speak to someone about how you're feeling. That way you don't have to give him the details, but he knows that you need support. He'll be able to take you to and from the GP and he doesn't need to know anything that went on.
and it does feel like my parents are controlling, but they aren't in reality. It's just how I feel.
Thing is, though, if i do go and see my friends outside of school, then I have to leave my brother alone in the house. Which i haven't ever done and cannot do, for more than just the one reason. I'd be eaten by guilt if anything happened to him.
Okay, great. Then have a cuppa and chat with your mum and then see how things go. Hopefully she'll be happy to arrange something with your GP.
Let us know how you get on
And Good Luck! ^-^