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let them help, get your mum to come over, she's offering and you need her.
or go and see your friend
hope you're feeling better
i went out to see my friends gig, and it was great, but on the way home these creepy guys started talking to me and a friend, and i totally freaked out, the screaming in my head started again, i felt sick, palpitations, panicy and shakey...
everytime i eat now i feel sick...its really worrying me now...
spent most of the day in bed, felt seriously fragile and this afternoon i got a really big self harm urge- i went to a friends and it made me feel a lot better but i need to get rid of anything razorblade like in my room. still no appetite, managed a sanwich but afterwards i felt sick. I actually picked up my guitar for the first time since my breakdown and i felt so much better for actually being creative.
i keep comparing all of this to a battle, and i was actually contempating drawing up a battle plan...it sounds like a good idea but i'm not sure where to start.
it would be great to see one though!
I am sooo fucking angry! I have no support worker, no care co-ordinator, no psychiatrist, and the crisis team haven't even let my GP know whats going on, and thus i can't get a repeat prescription because they don't even know what pills i'm taking!
the uni nurse is really worried about me, as am i, i'm managing about 1 meal a day atm, and getting new side effects every day. today its light sensitivity!
my mum arrives tonight, i'm hoping that having her around will help me get better and not go into crisis again...its a never ending cycle of crap....
i just had a arguement with my dr's receptionist about how she thinks i should stay with them, and how no one else has ever complained about the dr bringing her religion into her practice. she also said that i should jsut deal with it, because the dr does have 4000 other patients....
So, the crisis team don't want to know, my dr doesn't want to know, what the fuck am i meant to do???
i'm getting freaked out about my meds now...
I have this (it's a side effect of my visual and brain problems) and I got told there are some people who have it, but there's no reason for it.
she's sorting out art therapy, a survivors support group, a support worker, possible CBT and this eye movement thing which is said to help, and i'm going to have weekly psychology sessions whilst i'm on the waiting list...
she was really understanding of what i'm going through and she's also sending me a list of books to work through!
i can't quite see the light at the end of the tunnel, but at least i now know its there!
found myself zone-ing out in the last few days, had a few more little fits, but i feel like i'm making progress, none the less. I went to the zoo yesterday and had a flashback but it was really good to actually sit down with my mum and talk about it, rather than actually blocking it out and then my brain kind of shutting down on itself...
tiny steps, but they lead to huge progressions...
Absolutely! :thumb:
i'm still not great, wishing that things were better, feeling quite tearful now, possibly something to do with the 2 glasses of wine, amereto and coke, double vodka and coke, and half a cider...i really hope that tomorrow will bring a better day, but somehow i know it won't
How are you doing today? Sound's like you put yourself under a lot of pressure to sort the world's problems out? A mission, as you have said, which is impossible. What do you think it would be like to put all these energies into concentrating only on yourself? Put yourself at the fore front of any decision made, or activity you do.
What kind of things were you suggesting to your friend? Do you think you could use any of the ideas yourself? This can be very difficult - "do as I say, don't do as I do" , as someone once said.
We know this was last week, but how was the time with your Mum?
Each day is a new day, so even if tomorrow doesn't pan out as you want - there will always be a new day to look forward to.
Take care -
the kind of stuff that i was suggesting was both of us working together and when one of us is up to get the other out and going stuff, and such...but she said that was too hard.
today seems to be filled with appointments i don't want to go to - mentoring with a woman at uni who i really feel isn't interested in helping me as a person but is purely focused on my academic progress. plus, i've got a meeting with these people that are going to find me a befriender...it might be helpful, but right now i just want to stay in and be on my own...
i looked in the mirror this morning and i just thought i look like a heifer.
plus the one nice thing i was looking forward to has just been canceled and i'm really annoyed now...i've got fuck all to look forward to now...
Perhaps you could discuss with your mentor about how she makes you feel? Or discuss a possible change of mentor? The befriender sound's great, let us know how that goes.
Self-esteem and how we see ourself s is always determined by our mood. Try to think positive and take each step at a time.
i keep feeling sick...and i'm having such trouble crying when i want to...
i haven't writen songs for a couple of weeks, i should probably write more. i need something to occupy myself and i'm struggling to find things really.
i'm constantly seeking out people to spend time with i feel so lonely when i'm by myself, ended up going for a walk with people really late last night just to keep me occupied.
but right now i feel like i'm stuck in a pit underground with no way out...
i feel like i'm in two minds about everything, i want to go for a really long walk, but at the same time i'd rather be with friends so i don't have much time to think things over in my head. I really crave the solitude, but i know what happens when i get too much.
I ended up in bed with this guy i met at the student bar, it got really complicated and we didn't end up having sex, but all i could think about was how narcisitic he was. i had like this running commentry going on in my head, it was highly annoying.
I feel like i'm going around in circles and i'm just having cycles of good bad good bad, and not actually making any progress just getting kinda stuck.
i'm feeling kinda peaceful today, got my acoustic guitar which i'm really happy about, i do though keep having this creaping feeling like i'm gonna wake up tomorrow to find it all back to how it was.
things have really improved, i'm actually feeling happy sometimes, and the world seems like a bit of a better place. I'm still having a good few melancholic moments, i've been told to read this book about recovering from child abuse by my psychologist, and fuck, its hard going and its brought back a lot of flashbacks and memories that i haven't had before - or at least for a very long time. and there are days, like today where i'm feeling totally overwhelmed - i've got my final deadline coming up for my extended work, i'm moving on tuesday - and i'll have to live out of a suitcase for 6 weeks because i'm moving into my semi-permenant flat (until i graduate), after that. i've met an amazing guy, who is being really understanding and supportive, which has really helped...
art therapy is going to start next week! i'm really looking forward to it!
You've got a finger in every pie haven't you - bibliotherapy, talk therapy, sex therapy...;)
But really, I'm glad things are looking up and some combination of these seem to be working for you.
My boyfriend is continuing to be amazingly supportive and understanding but i just feel that with all my insecurities i'm gonna fuck things up...
you stated you were suffering from the following
Night terrors
vivid nightmares
flashbacks
panic attacks
depression
paranoia
mood swings
obsessive thoughts about suicide
at 1 stage I cudnt watch tv for seeing the Walls around it my vision was blurred and my here,ing was so sensertive I wud jump to any noise I wud shut myself away trying to controll my panic attacks 4 hour at a time I cudnt sleep and when I eventually did I woke with panic an fere of falling through my bed I was seriously loosing the plot this went on almost 3yrs hounestly doctors wud tel me nothin was wrong 1 even told me I was a hypocondreact no 1 understood an in the end only god knows I started controlling my feelings emotions panic sleep an so on with my diet this all will seem a lil bit of a surprise but it gradually started taking the madnes away pls read my thread road to recovery and there's a bland but very effective elimination diet on there I don't suffer any of these symptoms any more but only because I completly eliminate thos harmfull chemicals stated
good luck.
help?!