Should I stay or should I go?
I'm so mixed up at the minute. I can't think straight really as to what I want. I don't know if I want to still be in this relationship or not. I keep weighing up the benefits and cons and still come out not sure. I guess one of the warning flags would be though that they're all mainly negative. Benefits of leaving: no more hassle, stress. Benefits of staying: no stress of leaving.
How do you manage to get everything in perspective? It's not one of those things you can do lightly, once you've left you can't go back. We've been having a tough time anyway because of personal issues affecting each of us. So many thoughts on the matter, then I think maybe I should leave but then have a flash of how is she going to cope? I think part of the stress is the last 12 months or so she's become so paranoid of being a bad girlfriend she just does everything for me like a lifeless zombie. I'd told her to stop and be herself but 'making me happy' is what makes her happy, according to her.
She's so dependent on me for her happiness and her purpose in life it's almost drowning. But when things are good I can believe we're soulmates, the chemistry is just perfect. It's just these days, the bad times are longer and the good times shorter
I know none of you can tell me what to do one way or the other but I need some way of getting this all in perspective so I can think it through clearly and make a decision I won't regret.