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Leaving before Xmas
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Basically I feel really uncomfortable and unhappy being home (I'm a student)... Last time I was home I started to feel suicidal after a few days. I don't know what it is, but I hate it.
Anyway, the shit is about to hit the fan, everything's changing and I'm considering going home before Christmas... But on the other hand, I'm worried that'd hurt my Mum as I've been back one day only. I know things are changing and things always go bad for her and my stepdad's a fucking cunt and it's no wonder he has no friends. She's being weird. I just want to put my head in the sand and pretend I don't have a family.
There's no train until 28th after Christmas... I hate it here, I hate it so bad it makes me feel sick.
Would it be shit of me to go home on the weekend? I could lie and make an excuse up about studying.
Anyway, the shit is about to hit the fan, everything's changing and I'm considering going home before Christmas... But on the other hand, I'm worried that'd hurt my Mum as I've been back one day only. I know things are changing and things always go bad for her and my stepdad's a fucking cunt and it's no wonder he has no friends. She's being weird. I just want to put my head in the sand and pretend I don't have a family.
There's no train until 28th after Christmas... I hate it here, I hate it so bad it makes me feel sick.
Would it be shit of me to go home on the weekend? I could lie and make an excuse up about studying.
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It's fucked up because I'm a healthy and confident person, but I don't feel safe at home, or happy.
Maybe talk to you mum and explain how uncomfortable it makes you feel to stay there. She might understand. I'm sure she would appreciate you making the effort and being around at Christmas, even if you have to stay nearby at a friends or hotel.
Maybe I should stick around because Mum was saying today how much she's looking forward to Christmas because my stepdad will have moved out and we'll be together as a family and able to do what we want...
God... Famlies are such stress innit. :crazyeyes
Then in a generation's time we might have a happier nation.
I say stick it out - assuming you're not really in any kind of real danger.
How desperate it was making you feel.
What day is your stepdad supposedly moving out? Are you feeling unsure its going to happen?
Maybe you could take your mum out for a drink or something though so you still spend time with her and have a chat about why you don't like staying there.
I feel a bit safer though, that he's not around so much and is moving out. I know it sounds harsh, but he creeps me out and makes me feel sick. I'm not surprised that he'd been lying for years.
I think... I hope Mum will be less stressed... However, if she knows I am stressed she will blame herself. She kind of amplifies any potential mental health problem I may have for some weird reason. Like she thought I had OCD... Yeah, right. She always blames herself though.
No, it will happen. He's gonna be away during Christmas, even though he's being a baby about it. Good.
what about chaos - can you spend some time with him instead of around the rest of them?