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i cut myself really bad and i cant even bear to look at it. i was in a daze doing it and now i feel like a knob. i'm going to scar really badly for the rest of my life. its all down my leg and it keeps bleeding. fuck fuck fuck :crying: my boyfriend is going to be so angry i don't know what to do. i actually hate myself

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oh hunny (hugs)
I dont know what to say. Lots of arnica and I hope it doesnt scar as bad as you fear.

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I just tried to reply to this but it crashed thesite. I hope it's stopped bleeding and that you are ok xxx

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Bio Oil is meant to help, I think. Also, make sure you look after the cut properly.

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Hun, you need to talk about it to someone too - if you are not doing so already. Cutting yourself is not alright and its not normal. It doesnt mean you are bad or anything - just that you need to really find out why you are doing it.

Don't beat yourself up over this incident ... but use it as a wake-up call that you need help. *hugs*

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I'm confused. Was it on purpose or an accident?

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I went to a&e (again) to get it cleaned up and they stitched some of it. A letter is coming in the post about counselling too. They said that it will scar but there's nothing I can do about that now I feel mega shit :crying:

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the scars will fade, bio oil is really good to rub into once its fully healed. good news about the counselling, chin up.

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Hey there
Hope you're feeling a bit better now? It can be such a hard pattern to get out of, so try not to beat yourself up too much. Just try and remember how you're feeling now next time you're tempted to cut - it might be the impetus you need to stop yourself.

Just thought I'd post you some resources that might help too:

Stop self harming

Minimising self harm damage

A list of other sites and organisations that might help.

Scars and treatments

Hope this helps x

Former Member

Thanks for the replies. I'll defo get some bio oil. Went to the nurse to get the dressing changed and it looks much better but its still a fair bit of a state. Checkin out those links now thanks

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I did it because I felt shit about myself. I felt shit all that day to the point where I felt sick because I was so miserable. I stupidly went out and got drunk because a night out had already been planned but when I started to sober up I felt even worse. I was so angry with myself but I don't know why really. I always want to see myself bleed but I hate the scars. If I didn't scar I'd do it again and again

I don't even want to get better anymore. I feel like a fake when I try to be happy