Introducing Myself To The Mix
Anyway, enough about that stuff, let's talk more about who I am.
My pen name is Lyra or Lyrica, whichever you prefer, I am twelve years of age. I may or may not have accidentally entered August 1st 2005 instead of August 2nd 2005 for my birthday, but oh well. I have quite a few socializing interests on this website, and I hope to meet a lot of people on here! Maybe someone could give me advice for my problems that I'm experiencing. Oh, you want to know what those problems are? In a minute. I have a few hobbies, like Sleeping, Reading and Writing, and though I did enjoy drawing, recently I've not been interested in it. It's boring me, now. I'm mostly a quiet individual, more introverted, in a sense. I don't keep my thoughts to myself around my family, but I do have an extreme fear of other people. They scare me, all of them, you never know who could be plotting for your murder to be the next on the papers!
Now, as for those problems.
There are three sections. Depression, Auditory Hallucinations, and Visual Hallucinations.`
Recently, I have had a very depressed and down mood, much more than normal. It's persistent, even when nothing in my life is going bad and everything is settled and fine, it's still there no matter what I do, out of my control, in a way. It's very bothersome, and it has affected my ability to think, to stay awake and have child-like energy that I should have at the age of 12, weight in the way or not.
This is where things get fun. The auditory hallucinations I hear come in many different forms with different vocal attributes. One is a high pitched, annoying, girly voice. We call her Sabrina, she's always poking at me about my weight and appearance. Next we have a deep, male voice [see Markiplier], that we call Mark. He's usually the supporting one that wants me to take care of myself. Then a monotone voice, that is usually quiet unless I fuck up with friends, then he steps in and hits me hard about what I did to make them sad, angry or other, and he likes to not shut up for a few days. We call him Brian. Next, we have Joe, literally just the average Joe. He likes to bitch at me about everything I do, and likes giving me commentary on when I type things, my spelling mistakes, and he doesn't like me talking about him. [SHUT UP JOE-] Last, we have Jill, another average voice. She pokes at me C O N S T A N T L Y about cleaning, organizing, anything to do with Bipolar actions like scrubbing the house down to sparkly shines, and then other times she's poking at me about my mood, that's when she's a bit more sad, as I've noticed. They're really annoying but I don't think I'd understand how to function without them.
Ahahaha, whooo boy, this is for you Kaiden. Kaiden is one of my visual hallucinations, and he's watching over me while typing this right now, as a matter of fact! He's.... Hard to place, personality wise. I know he's more calm of a hallucination than any of my others, and he's quite friendly. Though, I don't like it when he puts his HANDS ON MY SHOULDERS QUIT THAT- okay thanks. Anyway, he's kind of an enigma to me, constantly changing. He's like a neko, part human, part cat. He can turn into a cat, and recently- Oh my god- He tried to pass through a wall not too long ago, and he smack into it so gracefully I almost died- It was amazing. It was amazing, so glorious, I wish I could show you but unfortunately for me he's in my head and there's not much I can do about it. He's a recent addition to my family of hallucinations. He's a good guy.
The only one's I don't like are my Depression, and these Auditory BASTARDS that are in my head. I understand that I shouldn't be able to tell that my hallucinations are, well, hallucinations, but lemme tell you how I know. THEY DO NOT LOOK HUMAN, ONE CAN TRANSFORM FROM HELL DEMON TO JACKASS, I HEAR DIFFERENT TONES WALNUTS IN MY M I N D AND THEY ARE NOT NORMAL. I can tell that simply because I like researching mental illnesses. They're interesting.
Thanks for reading my introduction, and until next time!
~TheArcticFox [More like TheArcticDickhead, as Kaiden puts it. (fuck you kaiden)]