Brief Thoughts - What's With Me?
Unfortunately, since then, I have heard each side of the story told in a thousand and one hurtful little fragments, and I have become suspicious of everyone who was involved - I feel like everyone is manipulating and toying with me against everyone else. Additionally I have spent a lot of time cooped up, pitying myself and feeling like a victim.
To add to that, I have a weird thing where my brain supplies me with horrifying and heartbreaking mental images of suffering, betrayal and victimisation, often through animals dying in cruel ways.
I'm beginning to wonder if I've developed some kind of obsession with self-pity, where I feel like I have the right to suffer and where other people's problems aren't as valid because of it, where I almost glorify the position of the innocent victim - to the point that I feel fragile and slow to trust. Is this something other people feel, and if so, what should I do?