Hi my name is Aleena. I am 16 years old turning 17 in December. Lately, I have been dealing with depression for a couple of months. This month I wanted to cut myself but I decided not to. Then about a week ago I started cutting myself and made it a goal to do it once a day. The reason is not because of attention, because I wanted to try it and it was addicting. I never really saw myself as depressed and especially suicidal. One of the things people can't see is how I'm so depressed and yet a Christian. I don't know why but its something that God wants me to strengthen in. I've been a Christian for almost 2 years now. I thought I would be happier which I was until the world crept inside of me. It's really hard for people to see a Christian depressed or even suicidal and see it as rare. Well I'm one of those rare occurrences. It's been awhile with this its been getting worse in my head. Only you guys know and some of my close friends. Although, I know I need to tell my parents since they know what's best of me. I know that God is right next to me waiting for me, because he loves me. This depression has gotten the worst of me. It has affected my style of music and thoughts. I'm here on this site because a lot of people can relate to the addiction and pain. If anyone has any questions feel free to ask. Otherwise, thanks for reading.