Cant cope. 'Anorexia' may trigger
I feel so frustated when peoole tell me i look skinny because i just cant see it. I used to be able to see how skinny i was but im still at the same weight and i feel so fat. I dont get it. I jusr want to reach my goal weight but i keep binging and i dunno what to do. I fear binge eating so much that i just end up doin it because im so stressed about thinking about it all the time. But i restrict more than i binge and losing weight fast, but i domt know how cause i dont feel any different and i think my scales are shit or something idk.
I exercise at night and purge at night and it makes me feel so alone at how secretive it all is.
Im so obsessed with wieght and keep weighing myself all the time. I dont know how to stop. I just want to eat and be fine and not be stupid into thinking i will be happy if i reach my goal weight
Ive had therapy for anorexia but im still so fucked up, im never going to get better