here I am.. 945pm writing a thread i dont even want to write but feel i need to get it off my chest. Im so angry and upset with the what i put myself through. again the abortion, i know you are all probably bored of this now, but i'm still not coping. i'm sat here now crying my eyes out over how different my life would be right now if i didnt do it. i'm about to go into 3rd year of university, the last time i saw my class i was 4 weeks pregnant and hiding it. the last time i saw my tutors was when i ran to their offices crying my eyes out and panicking about this and being told they will do everything in their power to help me complete 2nd year, which they did.
But i feel so anxious and stressed about returning and im really not sure why. well i kinda am, im scared of what people will think, im scared to bump into my ex boyfriends friends ( who he lied to about me) so they have their opinions on me. im scared im not gonna complete 3rd year.
im still greiving from this mess that was caused.A mess i was forced to deal with alone, and without the support of some people here i would of never got through it, but i want you to know, i am still struggling.